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so happy i have got thru day 4... my stomache feels veeeery big... i ate some choc cake tonight .. yess it was only a bit but still something! :) i hope my stomache feels more settled tomorrow!! xxx

and i have got through it!! after the way i was feeling yesterday i was scared about today but imn glad iv got thru one meal xx

i have not purged for 3 days and i feel happy for not purging but feel sad for feeling so bloated and big... arrrrgggh i need these feelings to stop!!!

i feel like things couldnt be much worse right now... i have not purged for 3 days.. my stomache feels so full and big... i like the way my stomache was flat and i could see my hip bones and now i...

so i messed up my 5 days non purging and i purged at the end of day 6!! it annoys me so much!! so now i have done 1 and 1/2 days not purging!!  i have been given anti depressants.. lets hope things...

so after giving in and realising i am depressed i went to the docs today.. they have given me prozac for 2 weeks then i have to go back to check everything is ok... i took a tablet this morning and i...

me and tobias r on a break.. i feel upset but relieved to not be shouted at all the time. i hope this changes him and makes him appriciate me more. i feel shatted .. an emotional wreck and feeling...

so.. its the 21st july! everything is crap! i am crap! my anti depressants are crap.. i dnt know what to do anymore. i feel like this is a  loose loose situation!! 

so i did amazing a few weeks ago i managed a few weeks no b/p... i went back to uni for a week and messed things up again.. BUT i am now on a role again and i have not b/p for 16 days and i am...

so.. i have been doing fantastic... i have been eating 3 meals a day, plus snacks, and having foods which i want like chocolate cake and what not. all together i have put on 10lb.. but i feel great...

day 4!! :D x

so im on day 4 now and i have not purged for 3 days! very happy with myself! :) xx

i did yesterday and didnt purge.. i dont know how many cals i ate but i also did an hours excersise :) xx

I have had a really tough time these past few days with purging.. today is another day and i am determinded not to do it today and eat my 1000 cal limit to control this! :) xx

i have been taking prozac for about a month now just over and i do feel happier in myself. i have settled more at uni and i have not been home for 3 weeks which is a big difference to when i went bk...