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me and tobias r on a break.. i feel upset but relieved to not be shouted at all the time. i hope this changes him and makes him appriciate me more. i feel shatted .. an emotional wreck and feeling...

so.. its the 21st july! everything is crap! i am crap! my anti depressants are crap.. i dnt know what to do anymore. i feel like this is a  loose loose situation!! 

so i did amazing a few weeks ago i managed a few weeks no b/p... i went back to uni for a week and messed things up again.. BUT i am now on a role again and i have not b/p for 16 days and i am...

so.. i have been doing fantastic... i have been eating 3 meals a day, plus snacks, and having foods which i want like chocolate cake and what not. all together i have put on 10lb.. but i feel great...

day 4!! :D x

so im on day 4 now and i have not purged for 3 days! very happy with myself! :) xx

i did yesterday and didnt purge.. i dont know how many cals i ate but i also did an hours excersise :) xx

I have had a really tough time these past few days with purging.. today is another day and i am determinded not to do it today and eat my 1000 cal limit to control this! :) xx

i have been taking prozac for about a month now just over and i do feel happier in myself. i have settled more at uni and i have not been home for 3 weeks which is a big difference to when i went bk...

i have done really bad and purged loads.. today is a new day and i am not purging today xx

and i have not purged.. feeling a bit bad about purging yesterday but i guess its okay as i made up for it today!

todday but its ok, ill just carry on tomorrw and make it a full week this week! :D

Done, finished with and done it.. not purged!! :D

and iv done it! i have not binged or purged for 5 days!! i am feeling a bit self concious about the stomache but i feel so much better.. i feel happier that i know i can do it!! :)