motherduck

I love it when I vent because the next day or two I always feel so much better.  Things are progressing.  Hoping we get to court in June and he changes his plea.  I'm praying everyday that God or...

Today I can't help but laugh.  I know this isn't funny but it's starting to get ridiculous to the point where I can't do anything but laugh.  I wrote about my teeth, well it's official, the night...

To all of you, thank you.  I'm doing okay.  I'm doing much better.  I'm doing very well at remembering why I'm doing this.  His house of cards is starting to fall.  June 13 is the day after my...

Last Friday we went to court for the pretrial.  They discussed evidence and then of course post poned it for June 13.  How can I make it until June 13?  My husband and his sister stood up and he...

Hi, still in hell here.  Waiting ....for something to happen, hoping I can have hope.  I'm writing a book, not reading a book.  I want to help people, I need to help people.  I have to know that...

I dream of him every night still.  They are mostly nightmares.  When I wake up I find the last crunch of grinding my teeth.  I check the mirror to see if I've broken any as my mouth is screaming...

sometimes that terrible sense of failure and loss creeps up on me without warning and I become someone else.  Or perhaps I become the real me.  I don't know.  I saw my daughter's therapist...

Feeling so tired, so defeated and just wondering if I can quit today.  Can I walk away now?  Can I leave this life that i've failed?  The funny thing is, life would go on.  Nobody would stop...

So I've now found out he has a girlfriend.  I've been told that she has recently put on weight making the neighbors also suspect she is pregnant.  I've a whole bunch of emotions surrounding this...

Just so you all know, when you wish me peace and love, i do feel it, thank you.

So he turns himself in while with his attorney and bail bondsman so he is immediately let out on bail. Someone posted 10,000 cash for him.  Then I find out this process will take about a year and a...

So finally everything starts falling in to place.  The sick bastard is charged and then a warrant is issued.  I am excited and validated and anxious.  then around 4pm I find out that someone...

My husband finally had charges against him filed.  It's been almost 6 months to the day.  3 counts of lewd and lascivious acts against a child under 14.  I don't know why it was only 3 counts, I...

I just wrote an email and thought it would be good to post it in my journal.  This is what's happening with me lately.  I grew up with the whole, "Don't air your dirty laundry". I lived by that and...