Gotten Worse

I just read my last entry. The depression is worse. Still have energy though. I wish I could just sleep it off. It's 1 am. I wish I was asleep. I keep having impulses to die. Like or to think of ways and I have allowed myself to contemplate a few. :( I'm tired, lonly, bored, angry, and sick of bullshit. Life is just so much bullshit with just a little tid bit thrown in now and then to keep me groveling. Wow, am I negative. Sorry. Guess I'll go.