Something that drives me nuts...

 It's almost been four years and it still makes me almost tremble with anger when people say "well, there must have been something wrong with him that no one could foretell or see"....."maybe it was a blessing that you didn't have to deal with him being very sick".....The thing is, Levi was sick when he was born, I already cried those hot tears, hoping and praying that he would live.....then, after he was released from the NICU and healed from the pnemonia, we almost lost him again when he had his surgery on his skull....i KNOW that pain....and I know that I would ache that way every day to have kept him....yet, for Levi's sake, I would never want him to know that kind of pain again.....BUT, levi was healthy, healed beautifully from his surgery and active, happy and amazing....I know people don't know what to say....i remember that when I hear this stuff.....But, it hits a nerve....Levi had things "wrong" with him and we and he survived those battles. I remember people looking at his twin sister in awe and then looking at him and really not having much to say or asking what was "wrong" with him before the surgery for his craniosynostosis. I hated that then. Because I was proud of both of my babies and I knew it was amazing that we had twins and more so, that modern medican would and had help him with his condition.I suppose.....others can not see my mind, my memories and know like I know...... So, I will tell them that, kindly and as smoothly as posssible, they do not know .....