hunnynutty

So life is playing me some uncertian cards right now. My gf wants to buy a house and have me move in next spring. Its a large size farmish piece of land, with a house, and land to rent, and land to...

Another conversation filled with emptiness, leaving me with more doubts then before. What the hell is going on in my head. Why cant I just take things for what they are, and move on. Why? I feel...

Somtimes you have such a great day, and at the end of it your left with so many voices in your head telling you its not what it appears. My gf came over today and we had a wonderful time. We havent...

So my previous entry was about my relationship. Well my x came down today and we talked and I guess you could say things are on the mend. I basically bared my soul to her telling her how her emails...

Feeling sad. Broke up with my gf. We were only together 3 mnths, but it still hurts like hell. She said she couldn't handle my depression. Which i guess makes me more depressed. Argh. 

I wish today hadn't happened at all. well...today and yesterday. But today firstly. Why? I have been having issues with a friend. At least I think she is a friend. But maybe after you read this you...

My heart is very hurt right now.Here's the situation. I have been helping with my friends Elderly mother. I do a little cleaning, and laundry for her every week. Plus the odd errand she asked for...

So tommorow I will be EFFEXOR its second chance. I was stupid before and I stopped taking it and I really went down fast.I told my doctor and she told me I shouldnt have just stopped, which i...

I am suppose to be having a small get together on sunday. Its really throwing me threw the loop. I have invited a few of my friends and some of my sisters friends.  I also had invited a facbook...

My heart has sunk. I feel worthless and like a loser. How can words hurt so much. I went home for what I thought would be a peaceful holiday. Instead I get more words slung at me. Then I need to...

So it happened again...went out...felt ignored. How can I tell a person that I would rather not be with a person she likes. I mean should I just ask is it just you and me, or will someone else be...

so i went out last night with this friend of mine. At times I feel really close to her. But then like last night. I felt like I was just a person follow them around. She was there with another girl....

Ok. So I am dealing with these feelings lately. Last night went out with  a friend to an event. Was fun. She had told me prior that she had invited some other friends.  So as the night when on one...

I feel completely messed up in side. I am not sure why I am feeling this way. But truth is... I am.I only wish this feeling .. would just go away !!

So I am heading out tommorow to try another LGBT community function. Going to a Art Show. Not sure what to expect. I so wish that I could find someone to help me break the shell that wraps itself...