I wish today hadn't happened at all. well...today and yesterday. But today firstly. Why? I have been having issues with a friend. At least I think she is a friend. But maybe after you read this you can fill me in as to what you think.
She was a past employer. I babysat her 5 year old. That kid was like my own and I loved her very much. Well as I babysat me and the mom became good friends. We slowly started hanging out and such. its was good. I told her a lot of stuff and felt like we had a good relationship. Someone I could turn to when I needed a friend. All in all it was good.
Then something changed. I became interested in someone. I told my friend and told her how I felt this other person. She seemed happy. I was meant to meet up with this someone new. But my anxiety got the better of me and I could not do it. This someone new at first seemed to understand. Later asked if they could add a few freidns from my facbook on to theirs and I said well wouldn't you want to meet them first, but they added them regardless. One of the people that was added was my friend.
Later I find out that they had a secret meet-up. My friend nexver told me, her young 5 year old told me that they had met. I was so mad. But I kept it cool and waited to see what was said. Got told that they didnt tell me because they didnt want me to worry about it, and get upset. Which I was already, but didnt let them know. Then it seemed after that it was a regular thing. Every weekend in fact. I would leave on the friday and get back on the monday to hear all the facts, from ... not my friend but her daughter. This continued for awhile and then I just couldnt take it no more. So I said I think I need to end this arrangement, let my friend know that I couldn't do the job anymore. i left and figured I would let it all go.
Right now the person I was to meet. For less confusion (L) is babysitting my friends daughter. I remember asking in my last week of babysitting if my friend had found anyone and she says coyly oh (L) said she would help me out. Now they are all together in one happy household. Oh...and by the way my friend has a man. So that muddles things up a bit too.
All in all it seems like its a soap opera.
Anyways, today my friend is dissappointed because I went somewhere without her, but three days later went to the intended thing without her. Then all these wierd feeling came creeping back. I dunno what to do...and as I have re-read this over and over agian. I am not sure anyone can.......
She was a past employer. I babysat her 5 year old. That kid was like my own and I loved her very much. Well as I babysat me and the mom became good friends. We slowly started hanging out and such. its was good. I told her a lot of stuff and felt like we had a good relationship. Someone I could turn to when I needed a friend. All in all it was good.
Then something changed. I became interested in someone. I told my friend and told her how I felt this other person. She seemed happy. I was meant to meet up with this someone new. But my anxiety got the better of me and I could not do it. This someone new at first seemed to understand. Later asked if they could add a few freidns from my facbook on to theirs and I said well wouldn't you want to meet them first, but they added them regardless. One of the people that was added was my friend.
Later I find out that they had a secret meet-up. My friend nexver told me, her young 5 year old told me that they had met. I was so mad. But I kept it cool and waited to see what was said. Got told that they didnt tell me because they didnt want me to worry about it, and get upset. Which I was already, but didnt let them know. Then it seemed after that it was a regular thing. Every weekend in fact. I would leave on the friday and get back on the monday to hear all the facts, from ... not my friend but her daughter. This continued for awhile and then I just couldnt take it no more. So I said I think I need to end this arrangement, let my friend know that I couldn't do the job anymore. i left and figured I would let it all go.
Right now the person I was to meet. For less confusion (L) is babysitting my friends daughter. I remember asking in my last week of babysitting if my friend had found anyone and she says coyly oh (L) said she would help me out. Now they are all together in one happy household. Oh...and by the way my friend has a man. So that muddles things up a bit too.
All in all it seems like its a soap opera.
Anyways, today my friend is dissappointed because I went somewhere without her, but three days later went to the intended thing without her. Then all these wierd feeling came creeping back. I dunno what to do...and as I have re-read this over and over agian. I am not sure anyone can.......
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