Rsmithma
Status: In Recovery
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- Next week I will be celebrating 6 months of abstinence in GA. This has taken me 3 years of trying to get this time under my belt. I have learned two lessons that have made a complete impact on my life, the first is that Ineed God and the second is I...
- I would like to please know the difference between Recovery and just abstinence. Could you explain please.Thank you!
- We went out to eat tonight at a restaurant in a casino. Maybe I should never go in a casino as a general rule. I had my kids so I felt safe at that point not gambling, but I think it would be best to stay completely out of them for now..... I hope...
- Lying, deceiving, hiding this from the world when I want to scream "MY LIFE IS A MESS BECAUSE I GAMBLED MY LIFE AWAY" "I AM AN ADDICT!" I am tired of trying to protect this secret! I want to fix this. I want the pain to end! I want a better life! I...
- No matter how many times I go down the road to destruction, I will Try and pull myself up! I pray god I pray this time will be different! I am at day one in my commitment to abstinence! Day one means I still have hope that I can make a change in my...
- I am almost at the 90 day mark. My husband is a gambler, but does not seek help, and I just found out that he has been lying to me about paying bills. I just want to cry!! I have been working soo hard on myself to have a better life for my family....
- I think this is the first time I am admitting that I am embarrassed about my weight, and just dying inside. I want to change this. But I end up just ignoring it. I want this time to be different.
- I got on the scale. I hit a mark in my life I never thought I would hit. I hit the 300 pd mark and this was and is devastating. I hate looking at myself and just sit here not doing anything about this except feel ashamed and want to hide from the...
- Fifty days ago I was a disaster. I had just relapsed after being gamble free for 8 weeks! I was contemplating suicide, and did not have any more energy to start any type of program again. I felt defeated in all areas of my life and everything fell...
- Stopping gambling by far was the hardest thing I ever had to do in my life. I thought that the only way out of that hell hole of a lifestyle was prison or suicide! I never expected to be freed by hope, determination and by friendship. The total...
- Thirty days ago I made the decision to stop the madness I call addiction. My destructive compulsive gambling that left me suicidal. I quit before and celebrated my 8 th week gamble free gambling!! How stupid!!! I fell into a depression and stayed...
- I wanted to get anyone's opinion on slot machine games on line that are free to play. I caught husband playing one and it totally offended me. He said it is technically not gambling....! Is this safe or a temptation?????
- I am mad that I got addicted to gambling. That it ruined my life and that I have nothing! I hate that my daughter blames me for a hard childhood and that she has every right to. I messed up my life! Why didn't I care at the time????? Why didn't I...
- It was a suttle change a little everyday I guess, I started to shy away from doing things that inspired me. Got a little confident and thought I did not need to be totally engaged in my recovery process. I allowed my mind then to be occupied by...
- Spending years and years of gambling, chasing, borrowing, and yes even stealing. Manipulating, lying, chain smoking, not sleeping!!! Then I get enough strength to start changing my life, to start recovery. I am happier, I am proud of myself. Then I...