StephanieisWarped

i'm back. and im getting better, things arent perfect. i've been trapped in my head and in the hospital but now im getting help, i dont feel so alone. i dont know wether to be proud of myself or to...

i slipped up. they cornered me. i cut

i got kicked out last night. i got called down to the principals office today. ugh stupid highschool bullshit.... So glad David is done working here. Now we can give us a shot... maybe.

Really? i'm "not worth waiting for"? then you obviously didn't want ME. you wanted something else. and i was almost stupid enough to give it to you. Glad you showed your true colors (:

So I've been messing up. i havent cut but i am destroying my body. I got so high last night that i couldn't see straight. i couldnt see at all. I smoked a couple bowls and snorted a few lines of...

It's been 62 tays. I feel so powerful. 2 months. thats a ginormous stride for me. Oh my gosh. i feel so strong. I feel like i can do anything. I've gotten a piercing and a tattoo to substitute the...

52 days sober.

I worte this one night and now I want to share it. my words please dont steal (:There's a look in your eyes, the suspense is killing me.There's a look in your eyes, I've never seen before. Is it...

SO the weekend, was bad but it was nothing like yesterday. My dad found out that i told my mom and he's turning my siblings against me. they dont understand just how traumatized i still am after all...

I don't know what to do right now. I feel like i'm surrounded by people who dont know and dont care. it's all getting harder. Harder than ever before. Cutting made it easier, and now that i'm trying...

This is me, i am invisible. noone sees the hurt that haunts me so vividly. I try to put on a happy face and get over it because i'm "stronger than this" but am i. am i really because it doesn't feel...

I've got so much on my plate that it's about to crack. my parents expect more from me but i've got straight a's a reliable and respectful boyfrend that they like i cook and clean and do everything i...

It's not about the pain, it's not about the scars... it's about the control. i can control when i bleed and when i dont i can control when i give in to my urges. i'm in charge of my own body. my...

I dont know what I'm doing anymore. I keep telling myself, take baby steps. it'll get better. and yet i see no improvement. I just want it all to stop. all the noise that runs through my head.It's...