Baby Steps

I dont know what I'm doing anymore. I keep telling myself, take baby steps. it'll get better. and yet i see no improvement. I just want it all to stop. all the noise that runs through my head.It's driving me crazy and into a deeper depression. I just want to run away and never turn back. My boyfriend keeps telling me to be strong and that he's there through the crazy...he has been, but i'm still going crazy. Hopefully tonight will go well and I can stay with him this weekend. I get so afraid when i'm in bed alone. when theres someone else there the nightmares stop. i want them to stop.