Invisible

This is me, i am invisible. noone sees the hurt that haunts me so vividly. I try to put on a happy face and get over it because i'm "stronger than this" but am i. am i really because it doesn't feel like it any more. it feels like i'm weak all over again. i finally open up about my past and its caused even more ridicule than before. school went from being a safe place to a nightmare. I sit alone. always alone. I have ONE friend that i can avidly depend on. but what happens when I graduate and she's still here? I"M SCARED. but I cant admit it. will i ever move past all of this? will i ever be visible to those around me. Because i'm tired of blending in with the walls that trap me here.why me? will my voice ever mean anything? When I speak, will they listen. or am i stuck here in obscurity. is my existance this meaningless. I look around and see smiles on the faces of my peers, excited to take their next steps in life, but i'm still searching for myself. because when i look in the mirror i see the tearstained face of my 7 year old self.I'm sick of it. I just want it all to stop.