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Status: Extremely irritable
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- I am having an awful time. I constantly think about and obsess about death..my own death. I have had cancer twice (in 2005 and in 2007)..so maybe that doesn't help...but lately it is consuming my thoughts..all i can think about is when i am going...
- The last few weeks i have found myself sliding slowwwly downhill. My last tsh had been like 6.3 and i decided to leave my levo where it was because i finally adjusted to the dose i am on and it was so close to normal. I have lost weight since my...
- I was diagnosed with a serious cancer in 2007. I beat it and remain cancer free. However....the thought of death is always on my mind. And when something tragic happens in the news, local or otherwise, my anxiety gets kicked into overdrive. All...
- I am not feeling well mentally or physically and i had soooo much stress at work today. I felt like saying "F" it and walking out. I wish i could just go to sleep and not wake up. I am fed up with all of it to be honest.
- I am wide awake again. I feel agitated and anxious, i just want to sleep! :(.
- I am wide awake. I have gotten my med cycle all screwed up. I also can't concentrate. I am feeling depressed and happy at the same time. I don't know how to stop this before it starts getting out of hand. I am even trying to meet guys on an...
- i just wanted to share something. I walked my first 5K on the treadmill at the gym this week!!! It took me an hour and a half to do it but I DID IT!!!!!! five months ago i could only walk ten minutes at .5 mph. Now i am abble to walk 2.5 on a...
- My life has become so blahhhhh.....i have a job, which i am grateful...however, i work with an extremely rude person. It is hard to spend so much time near someone so unpleasant. I am treated unfairly due to my weight. I am also in a lotttt of...
- I had my tsh done on Monday. It was 6.7 i was given the option to have another levo increase or stay put. I chose to stay put and see how i do. I'm sure this won't last for long...it never does according to my past history anyhow. No repeat...
- I am so depressed that i feel paralyzed. It is 4 pm and i have slept all day. I feel like giving up. I pray to God everyday to just take me. I have no money, no energy. I just exist. I want to feel better. I think i will just go back to bed
- I am feeling very bad about myself both physically and mentally. I was treated extremely rude today by a dr that i saw because of my weight. He made me feel extremely degraded and bad. I am also feeling bad because i feel like the "welcome mat"...
- So i went in to an orthopedic dr today because i have developed bad knee pain. I had a few xrays of my knees. I then saw the dr. He examined my legs. Then he started being a DICK about my weight. I had told him i have been walking an hour each...
- I am grateful to have a job. However..the job i have creates ALOT of stress because it is a very negative, toxic environment. I am treated very poorly by several coworkers. Plus i do the jobs of two people for a very measly salary. I just feel...
- Before I begin...let me just make it clear that i am grateful to have a job...that being said, i have the bad misfortune of working for and around people who don't respect me and treat me very rudely. It is a very toxic environment. I am filled...
- I have been in a LOT OF pain (knee pain) since wed. I have arthritis in my left knee. This is my right knee. I have not had a definitive arthritis in this knee. It is very stiff and painful. When i walk, i can hear my knee snap very loudly. Is...