nika91

I do feel much better than a few days ago, but I'm still talking with him. Its driving me nuts!

oh crap, just broke NC :( that's not good... he was quite distant and cold, but thats what he does. 

he didn't respond... 

Learning about self respect

I don't want to know youI don't want to knowIt's about time made up my mindGet out of my life you motherfuckerIt's about time made up my mindI'm taking what's mine you motherfuckerYou are made from...

"i dont wanna hear more about this subject. No fb, no fucking drama. and i swear if you piss me off again there will no more desire to keep talking. everysingle time is nagging or soap opera topics"

My world is crashed and burned. I feel alive only when I receive a message from him. He said i'm immature, deleted me from FB, yet still talking with me. There is a distance between us. He wrote that...

Last 3 months were life-changing for me. It's amazing how I got to this point. So many changes in my life happened so fast. I was so heartbroken and suicidal in september. And then I gave myself to...

It's incredible but yet another time i tried to end it for good and i failed. I'm stuck and this time i really feel i'm addicted. Can you quit drugs while still taking them? I feel a lot of denial in...

Signed up for a theraphy for the children of alcoholics.

Talked with him today, it made me sick. He's such a liar. He's fucking with my head. How much time do I need to realize nothing will change?

I met a guy at a party a week ago and he walked me home. It was 3 am and he stayed for a sleep over. I liked him at first but then he was trying to get in my pants ( even though my roommies were...

i had a huuuge step back... back into chaos and paranoia :( I miss him like crazy and I know that breaking NC takes me backwards. I feel i still love him. He says I'm paranoid and all those stuff...

It's absolute NC day 7 and I really miss him! It's a stage of what could, should, would have been... I feel that i lost something.

Trying to clean my room.. and my life. I feel so chaotic. I don't want him but I need him. I have the lowest self esteem ever.