nika91

"i dont wanna hear more about this subject. No fb, no fucking drama. and i swear if you piss me off again there will no more desire to keep talking. everysingle time is nagging or soap opera topics"

My world is crashed and burned. I feel alive only when I receive a message from him. He said i'm immature, deleted me from FB, yet still talking with me. There is a distance between us. He wrote that...

I met a guy at a party a week ago and he walked me home. It was 3 am and he stayed for a sleep over. I liked him at first but then he was trying to get in my pants ( even though my roommies were...

i had a huuuge step back... back into chaos and paranoia :( I miss him like crazy and I know that breaking NC takes me backwards. I feel i still love him. He says I'm paranoid and all those stuff...

It's absolute NC day 7 and I really miss him! It's a stage of what could, should, would have been... I feel that i lost something.

Trying to clean my room.. and my life. I feel so chaotic. I don't want him but I need him. I have the lowest self esteem ever.

Blocked him for the first time. Wow. I thought I'd wait some more time, but I see that nothing will change.

i feel so numb. So empty. Never been this way. I'm just stressed about tomorrow. It's really new and weird for me. Should I run to a shrink or something? 

I read a half of "Toxic parents" and I didn't shed a tear. I don't know if that's good or bad. I'm a very emotional person. Yes, I did feel angry and upset, and really messed up,  but it wasn't as...

Today I told my mom how my grandma was mean to me. I expected at least some understanding, cause my mom has been being put down by her too. But my mother started to bitch about my shoes as well. Yes,...

What to do with a toxic person in your close family? She always criticises me and brings me down. She comments on my hair, my clothes, lifestyle, everything's wrong with me. She doesnt understand...

A very personal and touching experience, but I feel that I should write about it. Some days ago I was in a horrible mood, hurting so badly, just wanting to die. Partially because of HIM, partially...

I was just thinking about this video of Bronzegoddess that I posted last time and I realized that yes, this situation happened to me as well! At least one time. It was some time ago during my first...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iQgEHA372VI

I feel hopeless and lonely... I hate thinking about the future