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Status: You can do all this through Him who gives you strength. Phillippians 4:13
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Feeling good. It has been two weeks. My mind trys to tell me to "celebrate" with a few dollars in a machine, but I keep fighting that with the fact of how much that would just defeat what I have...
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I haven't been checking in nightly because honestly I am trying to keep my mind off of gambling all together. Amazing how many times my mind drifts to it though through out the day...just to remind...
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Even sat in the parking lot for 10 minutes. Almost left without going inside, but emotionally the day had taken its toll on me. So much outside non gambling related stress that I used that as an...
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Checking in nightly seems to really help. I feel the only excuse I would have to not check in would be if I failed to fight the urge for the day. I had the perfect opportunity timewise today to...
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Well, I promised myself I would check in nightly, and I am happy to report I felt more obligated to not gamble today, and that I had more strength in fighting the urge to gamble. I did spend most of...
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Black Friday is going to have meaning to me...not anything about shopping, instead it is going to be Black Friday, the day I learned how to fight the urges. I seriously have researched the hell out...
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i do so well for a short period of time then even as i tell myself how bad of an idea it would be to go play...i do anyways. i know all the reasons why not to play i feel so wonderful when not...
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seriously thought i had this day handled..till i stopped by to play just five minutes. i just know it is wrong ugh. five minutes turned into a couple hours less stuff done for the day and myself...
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So, I made it 23 days gamble free. My husband had the "great" idea to go out and play "just a little". My mind said "This is a REALLY BAD idea" and I told him, "but....I've made it 23 days...
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So, it has been 18 days. We still are struggling financially, but I am happy to say I am not gambling. I am determined to stay focused and get us out of this mess that I got us into. Working on...
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Day #10, or should I say Trust Day #10. Celebrating 10 days without gambling, and 10 days of love and support from my family. Still taking it one day at a time, but now know its what you focus on...
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Its officially been a week, and I have still not gambled! The fact that I am not hiding anything from my husband and daughter has relieved the guilt I was feeling. Everything now is about...
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I successfully have made it through Day #5 without gambling. I feel that having the new focus of earning my family's trust back and making them my #1 goal in life again has really changed my...
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Yesterday, I did the right thing, and told my family (who already knew I was addicted to gambling, but they thought I had stopped) that I was yet, still gambling. I lost my husband's trust, I hurt...
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So, rather than starting over, counting days, and blowing it again...and go through the same routine of not even getting a week...I decided that I needed to tell my husband and daughter things were...
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