Busy wasn't busy enough
seriously thought i had this day handled..till i stopped by to play just five minutes. i just know it is wrong ugh. five minutes turned into a couple hours less stuff done for the day and myself feeling worthless. i couldnt even make it a week. glad this website is here to make me feel accountable. fresh start. new strength found.
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One day it will click. Every week ( for me) I kept asking myself, what\'s it going to take? I ended up borrowing money from my sister, my girlfriend, and my nephew. It was horrible. I prayed for death. Now I have all that money paid back (still owe ccs and credit lines) but I feel so much better. I know you will want to find that freedom. You can do it. ~E
As I was playing today, an old friend walked in not to play but to buy cigarettes. After 9 years, she had lost her job, was 2 months behind on her mortgage, and has not had power in her home for over a month. No gambling for her...just life handing her rotten apples. She was so happy to see me, hugged me, smiled, was so positive, joking that she loves camping and this is \"just like camping\". She saw I had money in the machine, had just won a bit, and I can\'t imagine what she was thinking about me at that moment. I think God sent her to deliver me a message. She has not left my thoughts since, and I hope seeing her will remind me of how good I do have it, and its not worth losing it all. Tomorrow is a new day, working on making the new day a week, a month, a year and more.