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I am a compulsive gambler that has caused enough destruction and wasted enough time and I will no longer let me addiction win.  No one wins at gambling!Just for my lifetime I will not gamble.  Just...

FACT: I am a compulsive gambler and have wasted wwwwwaaaaayyyy to many hours and dollars of my life gambling! Each day I have the option to get sucked back into hell or stay away and prosper another...

I have made it past the 6 month mark of not gambling and as much of a milestone as that feels like I also feel like I am falling off the wagon.  Starting to think, "Oh yeah, I could stop there and...

After a few short days of not gambling I was feeling pretty good.  Today I felt a sense of mourning, I felt sorry for myself and worthless like my life and actions didn't matter. I felt like going...

As I look back on this journey and realize how many times I have been  on and off this rollercoaster it really makes me sick.  I have not gambled since February 6th, I wish I could say that was...

I fell off the wagon.  I am a compulsive gambler and I was clean for over 2 years then slowly slid back into the hell of my gambling addiction. I am done sliding and will begin my climb to a better...

The facts are:I am a compulsive gambler - 100% a gambling addict.I can not gamble for "fun".I can not gamble "just a little bit".if I gamble and lose $100, I then need to spend another $100 to buy...

I have been gamble free since April 8th 2011 and it feels pretty damn good!  The only problem is that I haven't been coming to the site or focusing on "not gambling" so my mind is starting to say "...

April 8th is my 1 year anniversary of being gamble free! I am not sure what to think at this point - I had made it about 8 months gamble free before, then fell back into the hell of gambling.  But...

I haven't posted much lately and haven't visited the site as much as I like so I will journal my updates.  It has been over 90 days of not gambling and the last ones have been much easier than the...

I actually went to a casino with a group of people and did not gamble, I really didn't have the urge to either.  I had been setting myself up with the mentality that I can not do that no matter...

Well I have made it 60 days gamble free.  Of course I still think about it when I drive by them, or near them but I am very happy not to wake up at night in a panic about how I am going to come up...

Today I find myself in a difficult situation in that I have free time and no real obligations.  In the past this would be my hayday to go wild and plan on spending every dime I could get my hands...

I have had a few times in the last few days that would have been a sure time to gamble and I was able to fight the urges so I "won" those battles.  I think the thing that amazes me is how many times...

I  realize 2 weeks doesn't make me "cured" and nothing will but this goal is to go 30 days without gambling.  I feel that will be a good start in breaking my patterns of finding casinos.  I am...