Breaking the pattern
I have had a few times in the last few days that would have been a sure time to gamble and I was able to fight the urges so I "won" those battles. I think the thing that amazes me is how many times I arranged my life to be able to swing by a casino, or stop for just a beer before going home and it always turned into a bad deal of not stopping until the money was gone. Looking back it took a long time to develop that pattern - that automatic GPS in my brain that said turn right in 1 mile, turn left in 1 mile, you have arrived at your demise dipshit now go loose money! I know the GPS is malfunctioning my life so I can't listen to it but it will take a while so that I don't hear it talking to me. 1 day at a time I will not gamble.
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