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Had a pretty good week and an amazing weekend.  Urges got really strong through the week but I was able to handle them pretty good.  Expect them to get much stronger before they start getting...

It's been a few days since I posted, I've been pretty busy doing things with the family and around the house.  Have had the normal urges but I've been able to handle all of them.  It's somewhat...

Another long day at work, pretty normal day with normal urges.  Doing much better at conrolling my actions when I have the urges.  Had a wonderful evening with the family.  Just not a lot to talk...

Had on ok day, back to working the streets today after a week.  Pretty eventful day, very stressful situation that turned out about as good as possible for the good guys.  Definitely makes you...

Well, already had a relapse, I knew this would be hard but i'm very dissappointed in how little time I was able to hold it off.  Time to start over again and continue to strenghten my coping skills.

Had a good day today.  No serious urges that I can think of.  Spent some more quality time with the kids today.  Had some more good talks with the wife.  Just need to keep on the right path and...

Had an amazing day!  started off with a hug, first time in around 10 days we had touched at all, it felt amazing.  Home all day, had urges, ignored them all!!  got some house work done, texted...

Pretty productive day.  Had a good day a work, still only having minor urges that are pretty easy to forget about.  Worked outside with the wife after I got home.  We are talking and getting along...

We were able to talk more and it seems to be getting easier to talk again which is a huge relief.  I hate not being able to talk to her.  We decided to do a memorial for our baby.  I think this...

Had our first real talk tonight.  Tried to explain all the things running through my head, somehow I rambled through it and I think she understood some of it.  I think the biggest thing was that we...

My first big test today, I'm having the overwhelming feeling of being alone today.  Knowing what I can't do anymore is making it a lot easier to not do those things.  I use to think, it's OK, I'm...

My first real day of true recovery, No porn and no urge to talk to anyone that I shouldn't be talking to.  Attended an online meeting Smart Recovery and the topic was regaining trust, funny how you...

It's been a week since my wife told me it was over.  She can no longer handle me doing to the stupid shit that I do.  May will make 12 years we've been married, Hopefully we still will be but it's...