McBoredFace

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Age: 32
Gender: Female

I’m not entirely sure how to describe myself. I suck at writing about me’s ... they’re so general. Why can’t it just ask some questions and we can write a short sweet answer. Well here goes... My name is Brooke, my friends call me McBoredFace. I’m 23, born in 94. I’m right on the cusp of being both a Cancer and Leo. Which makes sense since I’m bi polar haha. I’ve have depression, bi polar, and social anxiety ever since I can remember. I’m also an Empath Indigo Child. Which makes the social anxiety even harder to deal with. I’m very spiritual and into witchcraft. I don’t believe in just one higher power. I believe there are many different Gods and Demons in the universe but not exactly like how it looks on tv or in the Bible. I believe it’s more of an energy and all science and mathematics and understanding physics is key to understanding higher powers. I started using drugs at age 14 and got heavily addicted to shooting heroin and fetynal. My Bf chris, who’s almost twice my age but looks like he’s my age<3, showed me there is so much more to life than getting high. It may take away my anxiety but that’s not all it takes away. It took away everything. My feelings, my energy, my personality, my purpose! When I was younger I used to be the person everyone came to when they needed advice or someone to talk to them they were depressed or even suicidal! I was always there for my friends even when they weren’t for me. I was extremely caring and funny and always able to include someone who felt left out and cheer them up immediately. But after drugs I lost all of it and cut everyone off and lost my ability to help people... So (Chris and I) we finally decided to get clean and have been in a program since Jan 2018. It’s going really well and I’m starting to feel normal again... but at the expense of my panic attacks coming back. My counselor and I found this website online and here I am. My hobbies include; -anything medieval and/or fantasy medieval -D&D -LARPing (my main character is a Wood elf rogue archer. That’s who I would be if I were real life me in that kind of world, and my second character is a male shapeshifter battle mage) -video games (my favorite game series is The ElderScrolls, Bethesda makes great games!) -music genres I grew up on were classic punk bands like the ramones, etc. thanks to my awesome mom! I also like post hardcore(A Day to Remember), and pop punk(sleeping with Sirens, Falling in Reverse etc.), anything around that genre and everything inbetween that and Disney songs haha except country music. Although I do like folk and blue grass. The banjo is pretty sweet haha - I watch a lot of tv. Being an empath it’s very easy to watch tv and really immerse myself in that world and feel the emotions and drama the characters go through. Which sucks when things get sad because I cry like crazy! Haha! My new favorite show I just found on Netflix is Black Mirror. It seriously brings out the anxiety and fear of the future but in a very cool way. Great great show that makes you need to stop and take a break after just one episode because you’re so overwhelmed. My favorite movie is John Dies at the End, also on Netflix. As you can see in my cover photo, I have a pet Jackson’s Chameleon. His name is Durnehviir. He’s named after a soul dragon from one of my favorite video games TES Skyrim. I also love comics. More Marvel than DC but still love it. My favorite character in Marvel is DeadPool and favorite DC is Flash. I practice witchcraft and just got an awesome daemon tarot deck. My bf and I have an awesome oddities collection. We love collecting weird things like skeletons, dissected animals(as long as they died of natural causes!) crazy crystals, antique furniture and doctors equipment, old pictures, and my bf painted an awesome Kennedy bust into a creepy Kennedy clown. I usually spend my days just sitting on the couch watching tv. But now that I’m clean that’s all going to change! I’m going to start going out and having fun with my new sober life. We live in Philadelphia so we like to go downtown into the city and find awesome places to eat, fun stores to look or shop at. There’s so much to do here and I’m going to experience it all. I can’t wait. And when both of us are 2 years sober and have enough money saved up we plan on taking at least a 2 week vacation to Japan! And after that marriage and ONE child, it has to be a son! There’s no way I’m going to be able to raise a girl. Especially with my family female side of mental health problems :( plus I’ve already got a name picked out for my future son; Vladimir Maximus (insert last name here) haha. Well that’s all I can think about saying right now. Hope that’s enough for you to see the kind of person I am. Thanks for reading :)

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