Well... Guess I never learn

Wow, talk about years. Funny how nothing changes.  The last few entries I could have written this past six months instead of years ago.  It surprised me that I mentioned mom's dementia back in 2013. I didn't think that the diagnosis was that long ago.  It is so much worse.  She has paranoia, hallucinations and delusions now.  I am dead to her after I dared to protect myself by calling the police when she made a concerted effort to buy a gun to kill me. How dare I want to live. She has chased Ricky away to Colorado. I miss my son.  Fortunately, Jimmy is just in Nashville.  He and I have lunch plans this weekend.  He is a good kid. I am most fortunate to have great sons. Except for dad, the family supports me.  Dad is doing what he can to appease mom.  He is so afraid of loosing her.  I have no doubt that is the reason why he has done what he has done.  55 years together.  I hope that he will be able to find a way to let me stay here in my house.  Mom wants me gone.  She can't do anything until after the trial.  Three weeks away. I kinda doubt that she will be able to pass the anger management test if they test her. If she fails, she goes to jail.  I just wish she would get the help she needs.  I just don't see that ever happening.  Jail is not the answer. She is sick and not in her right mind anymore.