shanese1992
Status: Getting sleepy and hungry. Why cant lunch time come any sooner!?
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- I saw my pdoc today andI told her everything about whats been going on lately she suggested the hospital but I'm a little uncomfortable with that option so she is getting me a case manager to make sure my meds are being taken every morning and night...
- I didnt sleep last night so it gave me extra time to think about how much of a pathetic life I live. I guess you could say that I'm unhappy. Now I just feel like death is the only way out whether its paying someone to do it or whatever. I feel like...
- The past couple of days I have been seeing more than hearing. I saw someones hand coming down the stairs but when I went to check no one was there. There was a black dog in the living room and a man walking into the computer room at one point...
- I didnt take my pills again big woop right? But not really it doesnt really bother me I felt fine before and I still will after. So I kept seeing people walkin around in the mirrors or like heads near my reflection. And for some reason that khiid...
- For a year or so now my emotions have been all jacked up. Today for example I was thinking of one of my friends and I was like "eww I hate her shes soo annoying" then 10minutes later when I got home I was like "aww man I love that chick shes so...
- I woke up at 4:30 this morning and it was dark of course, the curtains on some of the windows are see through and I sware someone was watching me from out there. I couldnt see them but they saw me I know they did. Its so scary to know that people...
- Out of all the crazy scenarios and situations that I cannot count that I've created for my society I never really took the time for the past five years to count how many people and locations theres been. So I did......148people 12locations not...
- Maybe I should give them a little longer but I'm still hallucinating and being paranoid. I get to sleep at night for fear that someone is going to come in the house and kill me the moment I close my eyes. Its just hard for me my next pdoc...
- She is in her last stage I think. She has jaundice now and I believe her systems are beginning to shut down. But to make manners worst there is a pastor trying to kill her and take our families rights away from us. My grandmother died from this same...
- Last night I was scared in the dark I had to check under my bed before I turned the light back off because I thought someone was in my room I was so terrified I clinched on to my teddy bear to fall asleep.
- I saw the man on the stairs again this morning. I keep seeing someone flash pass the couches and its annoying me for the most part. I see things coming out of the mirrors towards me and then they disappear. But the voices are getting impulsive and...
- Psychiatry went well today. I am now on 120mg of geodon and still 1mg of risperdal. I told her of all my symptoms and she doesnt seem to want me in the hospital which is good bonus points for me. She has ordered some blood tests and I should be...
- I have paranoid/childhood schizophrenia and thats just enough for me but everytime I talk infront of a large group of people my heart raises and I cant breathe or at least feel like I cant it takes me about 5 at the most minutes to recooperate and...
- My paranoia around people is getting worse. Everytime someone walks pass me I think they are going to slit my throat from behind. And when I type I think someone is reading it from afar and laughing at me like right now I think thats what theyre...
- Last night I was walking around the house alot just going up and down the stairs and there were alot of open dark spaces and I just kept getting freightened that someone was in those places and they were going to jump out and kill me and no one...