rutowsle
Status: Burning, uncontrolled self-loathing and feeling so insignificant
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This weather is getting to me, I am wallowing in self loathing and depression and I know this long cold winter is a huge reason. I've also come to my edge with a few other problems that I don't know...
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In the last two + years I've continued to fuck my life up. I cheated on my husband in a disgusting one night stand that I am thankful to have been too drunk to remember most of. A month later my...
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What a world it is that we live in these days! Everyone moves so fast and so loudly and I just can't take the pace anymore so here is my plan... I will combat negativity with positivity. I will stop...
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I'm barely ever on here anymore, I don't know if its a good or bad thing. I'm getting married in August and am very happy about that but we had to move back home for financial reasons and its getting...
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I was failing my social deviance class so I opted for a withdrawl rather than a fail. I've been so distracted this semester at work and with school. I'm happier than I've ever been and more...
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I'm barely ever on here anymore, I don't know if its a good or bad thing. I'm getting married in August and am very happy about that but we had to move back home for financial reasons and its getting...
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I was failing my social deviance class so I opted for a withdrawl rather than a fail. I've been so distracted this semester at work and with school. I'm happier than I've ever been and more...
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It's so odd to go back and read my past entries. My abortion seems like a different lifetime. Christmas time was hard because thats when I would have been due. Brian also made it clear that he didn't...
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I'm barely ever on here anymore, I don't know if its a good or bad thing. I'm getting married in August and am very happy about that but we had to move back home for financial reasons and its getting...
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I was failing my social deviance class so I opted for a withdrawl rather than a fail. I've been so distracted this semester at work and with school. I'm happier than I've ever been and more...
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It's so odd to go back and read my past entries. My abortion seems like a different lifetime. Christmas time was hard because thats when I would have been due. Brian also made it clear that he didn't...
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Mother's Day was weird, I wasn't sure if I had the right to feel upset. I made my decision knowing every reason was rational, but I keep thinking that I "should" be more upset. There is definately a...
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My prayer to the soul inside me: I pray that you understand why this is the best choice for us both. I pray that you will come back to me when I can be the mother that you disserve. I pray that if I...
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Life just sucks this week! My Grandpa is in the hospital with 15 pounds of fluid on his lungs. My car completely blew up and died last night, with 3,700 still on my loan. And I can't find my purse so...
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Life has been so busy! I've got my 1:1 client now and am trying to get her all unpacked and comfortable. I really like the client but I am worried about becoming overwhelmed. I know I do really well...
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