rutowsle

About Me

31 year old off/on college student with PTSD, and self injurious tendencies. I am learning more everyday about myself! I went through 3 years of intensive therapy that ended in the summer of 2007 and continued may 2012 with the same psychologist. I have to be mindful of my depression and the factors that contribute to it. I am married and continue to be amazed at our relationship. We\'ve hit a really rough patch this last year, I stepped out of our marriage after years of severe lacking sexually and then he lost his mother a month later. We\'ve been going through serious financial problems as well as another suicidal depressive episode for myself. I feel lost in my personal life and alone when I shouldn\'t feel lonely. After surviving so much blowing my brains out just seems like such a natural thought.