renuzit2

Well another month has gone by.  There have been good days and bad.  I miss you so much, I thought things wold move faster but it is slow..  I am forcing myself to go out, I find it difficult to...

I am so angry today..  I am so mad at my husband today or past few days... I find myself yelling at him..  I am having to get wood for heat this winter, I burned myself, getting parts to repair the...

I thought I was going to be able to rest after the long trip to Seattle (5 hours) but I ended up having to go back on Wednesday...  My daughter's car had been hit  while she was driving down the...

Well been busy getting wood. Going out a couple days a week.  A lady friend, and my son are helping.. They use the saws (their choice) and have a good quick routine going and I am the cahin...

Well, I went out today... Took a crane to get me moving but I did find some great wood to get later this week..  I have to go to the National Forest  so we have to hunt for good areas so we can get...

Well, I am finding that this experience of cutting wood for the winter heat is very painful... It is bringing up memories of my husband and I going out and cutting wood..  I am feeling frustrated...

Well I have gotten through the past month, month and a half of tears and anger.  And I want to thank all my friends at DS for the strength and support..  Joely suggested a book which helped her and...

I am just getting by day by day...   Some days are better then others some I can not leave the house..  I snap at my family, feel so out of control..  I know I am falling into a depressive state...

Does the pain every ease or go away?  I feel a part of me is gone and that I am struggling to become a whole being again...

Well today is better then yesterday..  Yesterday everything just felt so heavy and exhaustive..  I just could not force myself to do anything...  Today I feel better.  I found a guy to get a...

Well, my son was right. I could not remove my rings.  Guess I was too optimistic..  It just feels so final and causes so many tears..  I will just wait until it feels better and not push...

Well another month has gone by.  There have been good days and bad.  I miss you so much, I thought things wold move faster but it is slow..  I am forcing myself to go out, I find it difficult to...

I am so angry today..  I am so mad at my husband today or past few days... I find myself yelling at him..  I am having to get wood for heat this winter, I burned myself, getting parts to repair the...

I thought I was going to be able to rest after the long trip to Seattle (5 hours) but I ended up having to go back on Wednesday...  My daughter's car had been hit  while she was driving down the...

Well been busy getting wood. Going out a couple days a week.  A lady friend, and my son are helping.. They use the saws (their choice) and have a good quick routine going and I am the cahin...