Days seem a bit better today.

Well I have gotten through the past month, month and a half of tears and anger.  And I want to thank all my friends at DS for the strength and support..  Joely suggested a book which helped her and I bought it and it is really helping..  I also bought a video to transform your life called "Letting Go" and that is helping, too.  I am not letting go of my memories but these powerless feelings must go.. It is time..  I am beginning to look at things a bit brighter.. OH, I know there are going to be more tears, more sad moments, but I know I can get through them, too.  I believe God only gives us what we can handle.  So even tho I feel over whelmed I know God is with me, on this long walk. Now I have to begin preparing for winter and that means going out into the woods and chopping wood (that is all the heat I have) I can not afford 7 cord at 150 ea..... ugh.. So this is a new experience.. Oh, I went out with my husband before but, he planned where we would go and did the cutting I just stacked...... So another new experience..... I am a bit scart...  When I got my permit at the forest service, this guy was being a bit rude and cutting me short.  I stopped him and said" Look my husband always did this before, and he recently died and now I have to do it and I just am finding it a bit overwhelming.  So please help me..  His attitude changed and he was very helpful after that... Thank goodness, I was about to break down... So off to a new adventure...