scottbeach1962

I have never been so lonely in my life even after Cindy pasted away I had some visits from friends and family .This cant happen for me right now my real friends and family arein another country half...

     Everyone has left went home so I'm in this big empty house by myself if it wasnt for going to work I wouldnt have anyone to talk to .Wendys youngest messages me and chats to me by messaging...

Wendy pasted away on good friday so its been 22 days .I am so lost without her I gave up my whole life to be with her and after we both had already had to go through this before this time in our life...

        Wendy is getting weaker she is so frail . She has no strenght it hurts so bad to she her this way ,poor thing was so strong and active and now she cant even walk uo the stairs without...

Ever since the weak before Christmas Wendy's oldest daughter and granddaughter have been in my house but 4 days .Her daighter wasnt there for her when her late partner/spouse pasted away because she...

    Wendy is taking Morphine about 5 times a day small dose each time but her pain is getting worse its not easy watching her getting weeker and it hurts so bad that you cant do anything to help...

    I just went back and reread all my old Journals ,I got lazy and to comfortable what a stupid thing I should of enjoy more with Wendy now its to late its just hard when you work and get tired...

 I am watching my love and my life die from cancer and I cant do a damn thing about it .

It's been 9 months since I moved to Australia and it's not a bad life with Wendy at my side ,I got a job almost 3 months ago . It's winter here and during the day it is in the 60's and at night the...

Today is  two years ,I found Cindy dead in the living room and called 911 then did CPR until EMS showed up only to find out she wasn't going to come back .I myself am doing good but it still makes...

Wendy and I moved into a smaller house two weeks ago .The other house was very nice it was the nicest house I ever lived in but we didn't have any pictures on the walls and it was to big for us ,we...

the time is getting closer i only have 21 days left at work before i quit and 22 days before Wendy lands in pittsburgh i am slowly getting my stuff taken care of i cant wait until she gets here i...

i had a great visit with wendy in australia i was nice being with her again and the country is beautiful .the flight was very long being in the air for 20 hours wasnt to bad because i knew wendy...

i had a long talk with Mandy today about the feeling i have for Wendy and about me moving to be with Wendy .its hard telling your kids even if they are your step children i have raised Mandy since...

    went to the core ceremony today mandy came with me it was nice but sad at the same time seeing about 200 poeple  or more there was good and bad knowing how many people were helped by everyone...