not feeling good today

    I just went back and reread all my old Journals ,I got lazy and to comfortable what a stupid thing I should of enjoy more with Wendy now its to late its just hard when you work and get tired .                                                                                                                          I also see a lot of the same emotionsas I had before and just know its going to get worse and fast.                                                 I see what was a very strong active woman become so frail in 2 months its just not fair we had already went through all this and I really dont know what I'm going to do without her I gave up everything to be with her .I know I say it all the time to her but I really do love her .I love you Wendy and will miss yoiu so much .