beaniesgirl

I find this whole experience amazing...just nt in a good way. It's now been 5 months and 2 weeks since my Mom died. I can honestly say that things are no better for me at this point than they were in...

My bestie since 1981, sent her mom home to our lord last night at 8:05 central time. It was not as unexpected as my mom, but very sudden. They had her in the ICU overnight and thought they had her...

Well, both my kids and my step son are back to school now! 2 of them are in college at varying levels, and one is in 3rd grade as of today.Still not sure how I am supposed to be doing with this. Mom...

My husband is going to try and limit my time on the computer. I was told in a very angry tone at the top of his voice that he's done with me spending 5 hours a day on this damned thing! I looked at...

Everything is a struggle now. Every breath I seem to have to beg out of my body. Unsure why. Assuming it's the grief. I have to say that this shit sucks! There aren't enough sucks minus indicatrs on...

It was another day. I got up...without my mom. I got ready and went to work and wasn't quite myself. I'm normally not myself these days. I really am struggling with everything that has landed in my...

So I tried to have a good day. I really did try!It wasn't half bad until my hubby woke me up an hour early! I had planned to sleep in and he didn't remember I was off today. :( Then the requests...

Today is another day...Not too sure of it being a good day. I am so very sad today. I cannot really even put it on a scale. So bad, good...who knows?Dad and his wife are here to visit for the next 2...

When I signed in last night I was surprised by someone responding to a journal entry. I don't know why God puts people in my path, but it was exactly what I needed at that moment. I don't know what...

Yesterday started out like any other day...the "new normal" I guess you'd call it. Got up, drank my husband's muddy coffee and started my day.Since mom's death I am faced with running the household...

My husband has found a full time job! This is a first in almost 2 years. It wasn't so bad when Mom was still here because his was the supplemental money to pay unforseen bills and such...or so I...

Things in my world may not be wonderful all the time but they are NEVER boring! My brother cannot bring himself to speak to me. I am not sure why but I am not going to bully it out of him either. He...

Today is the Glorious "One Year" mark. She left us one year ago after a 70 year battle with life!I am absolutely numb about this whole thing. I look around me and I have not progressed at all. When I...

She gets to have it with God and her dad and husband. Maybe they will play cards or something. She got to meet her grandbabies that didn't make it to Earth. She doesn't have to worry about anything.A...

I am barely hanging on right now. Not really holding anything together at all. Oh I am trying, but not succeeding at all. I am behind on my Utilities and I am now facing a sizeable car repair or I...