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I am starting to feel happy some days. I feed good about myself.  I am trying to reach out to my husband but he is pulling away. I wonder of her is missing her. He says he isn't and it is just work...

I am feeling better today.  I was starting to feel like i wanted to end the marriage but we had a good day yesterday.  I found out she moved. I am not sure if that is good or bad.  If she moved...

I just don't feel safe anymore.  He promised to love and protect me, he says he still wants to but I can't trust him.  I am anxious a lot these days. I feel like I am going backwards in the...

We had a huge fight over the week end.  I got really angry and told him to f! off.  I have never done that before.  It was partly due to the fight but I know that I have been feeling angry at his...

It is 7 months today.  I don't know why it always hits me bad but the anniversary dates do.  I feel so hurt and betrayed all over again.  I have real flashes of anger.  I am trying to keep myself...

I will try and live in the present and not the past. The hurt is still there but H is really trying.

I need to stop obsessing on the A and start getting back to my life.  I have let too many things slide including some friendships.  I will spend a part of each day catching up.

I am feeling very detached these days.  Just going through the motions.  I don't want to feel anything right now, like I am an observer. I have stopped working on our marriage just coasting.

It has been a hard 2 weeks full of despair.  My H has been so supportive and has pledged to spend the rest of his life trying to make this up to me.  I am feeling more hopeful and I am feeling...

He was supposed to have my back, instead he stabbed me in the back and heart.  I will never understand why he did this.

The anger has subsided, the crying has stopped for now. My H is depressed but I don't feel guilty for that.  He is sorry he forgot how much he loved me.  I am not going to try and make him feel...

Well is has been 6 months since I saw him walking to his car from her house.  I didn't sleep much last night because I had this scene of the 2 of them having sex going over and over in my head. It...

H has pretty wel stopped being so nice and considerate and affectionate to me.  He has not intiated sex in over a month.  I have several times and we always enjoy it.  I son't want to be the only...

It seems we take a step forward and then back.  H is trying to be attentive and loving but he dowsn't seem to get it that I need to see that we are working on our conflicts too.  He gets very...

We finally had a good talk about why he did what he did.  He acknowledged his weakness so I think we have made the first step of me trusting him again.  He has agreed to read "After the Affair" and...