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I am having a bad day today.  I feel like I can never love him like I did before.  I thought we were great together and he thought I was special. I guess I wasn't as special to him as I thought. ...

Tomorrow it will be 5 months from the worst day of my life.  I think I have come a long way since then.  One of the things that hurt the worst is that he was never going to stop seeing her unless I...

I was feeling really good about our relationship.  I was trying hard to keep the ugly thoughts out of my head by telling my self I am worthy and a good preson.  This was working.  A letter arrived...

H is tring so hard to be attentive and caring but I feel so angry sometimes.  I feel like I can't talk about my anger or resentment because he is trying to make things better.

I "friend" of mine told me that I must be codependent because I was choosing to try and work it out with my H after over 4 years of him lying and cheating. With my self esteem so very much affected I...

I made it through the 11 month mark with out a relapse! This is a huge step for me.

I finally feel somewhat back to myself. I can focus on things now instead of obsessesing on negative thoughts. This doesn't mean I don't feel a pain in my heart everyday but it is no longer the...

I guess I have to come to realization that I was naive. I truely thought that there was such things as soul mates and ture love. I truely thought that if I was the love of his life like he kept...

I    can't seem to let off my anger some days. Yesterday I was angry all day and I blew up at him. He was my whole world. I loved him for who he was all his faults included but he didn't love me...

H was real sweet this week end. I feel like I made good head way to getting over this. I know things will never be the same but I feel good about myself again. I still fear running into OW even...

I finally feel like I am coming out of a bad week. I am feeling more positive. My mood has really afected H. He is now so depressed. I think we need help. Because he travels a lot for work we can't...

I am starting to feel connected to him again. I still doubt that he stopped having feelings for the OW. Tha really hurts! Maybe I am being too sensitive. He denies it but he gets so distant at times.

I am feeling so hurt all over again. I can't seem to get the visions of the 2 of them having sex out of my head. I can't seem to stop comparing myself to her. I have to stop! I was feeling better...

I told H I didn't want to go away for our 30th anniversary.  I don't even want to celebrate our anniversay unless we renew our vows and this time he has to mean it. He was very hurt but said he...

I just spent a week away from my H. I had to go away to help someone not by choice. I really missed H and wanted to reconnect again.  When I got back my H surprised me with flowers dinner and he...