faithtofly
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- So we justed made a major move from TX to OR 3 weeks ago and in the past week and a half ive been driving myself crazy. I started a new job at a 7-11 a few days ago im doing very well they said but im constanly paranoid im counting money 3 times for...
- Ive been off here for 2 years now im back looking for new friends.
- My therapist brought to my attention that i havent felt anger toward the men who raped me from 9-17. I feel anger towards myself. I put the blame on myself for so long I dont know how else to feel. I just recently started tofeel things as I have...
- My therapist brought to my attention that I havent felt angry to the men who raped me through-out my childhood. I have been dealing with self blame and the what could have I done. Im angry at myself. She points out that I was 9-17 couldnt really do...
- So I was sexually and physically ,raped by 6 men plus my mom. From 9-17. I got married at 19 left him at 21. The thing is i dont remember being married nor the wedding i lost 3yrs. A online friend i lost contact with messaged me and asked me if i...
- My therapist found a new job. Good for her,sucks for me. The therapist left is an older male...at a rape advocasy center. She says it might be a good thing for me, to help me with trust building. It just breaks my spirit a little bit . I trusted...
- Im getting to the point of hating myself. My therapist said I was doing fine because I was working full time im a 12am-8am casheir. It keeps me busy and gives me purpose . Now ironicly a week later Im down to one day a week. Everyones hrs are cut. I...
- I started seeing a counselor at my church. The thing is im afraid to tell him my story.Yes I can write about it I just cant say it out loud . Im afraid to feel anything. And I know all to well I will. Im afraid to feel anything about what happened...
- I feel akward posting this. I have been on ds for a long time. I am a survivor of childhoodAbuse , rape,sexual abuse. From 9-17. From 7 men and my mother. She is a prostitute. I have never experienced any real emotion from this I havent really got...
- Hi i have been on ds for a few years now trying to overcome bipolar ocd sexual abuse rape and emotional and physical abuse.it just seems so damn impossable.i feel so dfrustrated and angry at myself.i think i should be over this by now. Yes they...
- i wrote a post yesterday about healing, the idea was from my therapist.She told me if you dont know what healing looks like for you, how will you know when you get there? What does it look like for you. She told me not to add "I wont" and "I dont"...
- i wrote a post yesterday about healing, the idea was from my therapist.She told me if you dont know what healing looks like for you, how will you know when you get there? What does it look like for you. She told me not to add "I wont" and "I dont"...
- So this is what Healing IS going to look for me,and I say IS because healing WILL happen for me. I am going to be peaceful,relaxed,I will be educated.I will be stronger,Because I know I am not weak.I will be able to feel and express emotion and...
- So this is what Healing IS going to look for me,and I say IS because healing WILL happen for me. I am going to be peaceful,relaxed,I will be educated.I will be stronger,Because I know I am not weak.I will be able to feel and express emotion and...
- So this is what Healing IS going to look for me,and I say IS because healing WILL happen for me. I am going to be peaceful,relaxed,I will be educated.I will be stronger,Because I know I am not weak.I will be able to feel and express emotion and...