jenlost

I can't sleep at night last night it took me till 3:30/4:00 to finally fall asleep and then I was up at 8:30.  I am having nightmares and bad dreams.  when I close my eyes I see a million things...

I hate myself and everything that has to do with me.  Everything I do seems to go wrong it seems that I can't ever do anything right.  I had to watch my niece today and all she did when I held her...

It sucks being on disability and having to live at home specially when my younger brother lives there also.  He is such a self-centered person, he always has to be right and doesn't care who he...

I am a worthless and hopeless person.  I have no meaning in my life.  I don't due much during the day because I just don't have the will or the energy to do anything.  Even if I did want to go and...

I hate my life everything about it the way I look the way I talk just me as a whole everything I do is wrong I can't seem to think thing through I hate myselfsometimes I wish it were over, someone...

Everyday is such a struggle for me, even to get out of bed.  The pain that I am consistently feeling makes me want to cry, but I can't.  I can't because I live with my parents and they don't...

Most days are a struggle to get out of bed.  Sometimes I feel like there is nothing to live for.  I hate myself very much.  Everything that I do is wrong.  The pain I feel is bottled up inside...

Everyday seems like a huge rollercoaster that has more track going down than going up.  Put some lpes into the race and you have my day. 

It has been almost two weeks since I last cut myself.  Way to go me!  I almost had a slip up the other day when I was having problems with my mom, but I was able to distract myself.  I just hope...

I was doing so well, I went four days without hurting myself.  Then tonight, I am having trouble calming or relaxing myself and the only other way of doing that is by cutting.  It has helped...

I don't know what to do, I have a medicine that I am out of and I don't have the money to get more.  The medicine does not have a patient assistance program, so I can not get it for free like most...

I thought I was doing pretty good, going two days in a row without cutting, but that all ended tonight.  I am having trouble relaxing and cutting helps me to relax, sometimes.  The last few nights...

I don't know why I keep telling myself that everything is okay and that I am fine, when really I know that I am not fine and things are not going to be okay.  I have no hope for the future of any...

Things are alittle bit better, but they are still not good all to well.  I talked with my doctor again and she raised another one of my medicines and if this does not work and things are still not...

I thought things were getting better, for a small piece of time it was, but then things went back to normal.  I am always shaking and afraid that I am going to do something that will hurt me, not...