I thought I was doing pretty good, going two days in a row without cutting, but that all ended tonight.  I am having trouble relaxing and cutting helps me to relax, sometimes.  The last few nights I have been trying something new to help me relax and also to fall asleep.  It is something that my therapist is having me do, first you picture a container that you can put things in and later take them back out, then you picture putting all your worries and thoughts in, that way they are out of your head and you can relax.  But later, if you need, you can take them out again and work on them.  This has helped alittle, but tonight it has not helped me at all, as I said before I went back to cutting like before.
It seems like everything I do and say ends up being the wrong thing.  I can never make the right decision or say the right thing.  I am just a hopeless person.  I have no hope that things will get better.  Things to me are either going to stay the same or get worse never better.  Why can't things ever get better?  Why am I so messed up?  Why does everything go wrong in my life?
I am the most worthless person I know.  I do not work, so I don't do anything to help out with bills or paying for food.  All I do is sit around the house, there are times when I do clean but for the most part I do not contribute anything.  Why do people what me around, I am good for nothing?  I am a waste of time and space.