Beth93

yesterday i had 2 anxiety attacks. the first one was the worst but thankfully i didnt do anthing to myself. the second one though was in the middle of the night and i ended up scratching my...

today i went to the library because i want to do a research paper on lyme disease because thats what im dealing with. i also have Bartonella and i found out from one of the books i have had it for 4...

it's been such a long rough year. battling the lyme and relapsing like crazy has not been fun. Having it get in the way of my work and social life isn't something I want to happen and I swore it...

everything hurts lately, even my ankle. really starting to frustrate me because I have no idea what to do or who to go to about this anymore. my memory has also gotten really bad. my short term...

so tonight as I was looking something up I stumbled upon something that I had discovered about my body 6 years ago. I remember the day I found it like it was yesterday. Wondering what was up with my...

been on it for about a month now. taking 3 capsules 2x a day which is def not something my body is use to. I'm feeling sick to my stomach all the time. last week at work during a double I got to the...

found out last week that my llmd doctor is no longer doing her clinic for her lyme patients. a few months after we started going to her she informed us that she was leaving to a place off Cape (I...

so stressed. Dad hasn't had any work come in, hes a self employed carpenter and no one has needed him so mom has been wicked stressed and telling me everything thats wrong so thats made me wicked...

ok, how do you know that you are done hurting yourself????? I mean come on I think about it but I don't... is that considered as progress or still just the same pathetic person I was 2 years ago?I...

fuck this I'm so done. there's no point in staying around. I wish I could just disappear. nothing is going right. I can't do anything right in this world and I'm going nowhere with my life at this...

You must have been in aPlace so darkYou couldn't feel the lightReachin' for you throughThat stormy cloudNow here we areGathered in our little hometownThis can't be the wayYou meant to draw a...

just fuck it im done

I'm going on a crash diet. I feel huge. I'm 125lbs dancer at 5'5inches and I really just wanna loose weight. honestly, I want to be about 110-115 i neeeeeeed to loose weight :/

is it normal to have conversations with yourself as if you're like talking to someone else? it scares me. i do it way too often.  didn't have an anxiety attack today!!! I'm sooooo happy bout that!

last night was rough. I woke up at 2:30 due to anxiety and didn't get back to sleep till 4:30 because of it. I also had a small anxiety attack that day at work. no fun. now I'm just wicked depressed...