Beth93

fuck this I'm so done. there's no point in staying around. I wish I could just disappear. nothing is going right. I can't do anything right in this world and I'm going nowhere with my life at this...

You must have been in aPlace so darkYou couldn't feel the lightReachin' for you throughThat stormy cloudNow here we areGathered in our little hometownThis can't be the wayYou meant to draw a...

just fuck it im done

I'm going on a crash diet. I feel huge. I'm 125lbs dancer at 5'5inches and I really just wanna loose weight. honestly, I want to be about 110-115 i neeeeeeed to loose weight :/

is it normal to have conversations with yourself as if you're like talking to someone else? it scares me. i do it way too often.  didn't have an anxiety attack today!!! I'm sooooo happy bout that!

last night was rough. I woke up at 2:30 due to anxiety and didn't get back to sleep till 4:30 because of it. I also had a small anxiety attack that day at work. no fun. now I'm just wicked depressed...

well, the show was yesterday! It was so great!!!    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bNb6LkwzTJ0 ~ Sing Sing Sing!(I'm a guy)http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tWlY7x3ADyg ~Coppelia (in one of the...

Yesterday marked as one year since my what could have been a fatal accident so I guess you could call it a near death experience. I really wish I had gone to either the nurse or my guidance...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=atBg9zLI2bA I havent been to church since I don’t remember whenThings were goin’ great ‘til they fell apart againSo I listened to the preacher as he told me what...

I follow the nightCan't stand the lightWhen will I beginTo live again?One day I'll fly awayLeave all this to yesterdayWhat more could your Love do for me?When will Love be through with me?Why live...

well, I went to that party on Saturday. I ended up having a really good time and even caught up with an old friend who I hadn't seen in about 10 years who went to the party as well. this really...

I work with kids my age. get yelled at by ones basically my age. the assistant manager makes fun of me for having so many injuries and getting injured easily. I CANT FUCKING HELP IT! same with my...

this pain to just so ridiculous. I'm hurting so much so badly. I can't even sit or lay down without hurting. I don't like it. I'm sick of it. so very tired lately, not sleeping well at all. I'm ready...

so a friend of mine is having a party for his birthday in 2 weeks and wants me to go. I went to school with some of these people that are going to the party but they never talked to me. so I don't...

still trying to lose weight. people are calling me crazy and I shouldn't do it. I'm going to do it and it will happen! I'm not gonna go anorexic again I'm just gonna lose weight and be happy with my...