Beth93

I've finally completed a goal. I failed the first 2 months i tried to stop for 2 months but this time I succeeded. It was so unbelievably hard to do this. the only motivation i had was that when...

well, first 2 shows out of 6 start Saturday. im hurting so much now. last Saturday after going through Arabian once something happened to my ankle. hurts real bad, Chinese is going to be torture and...

Fuck my life, fuck the fucking world, fuck my "friends", fuck this ridiculous fucking life, fuck my dance studio, fuck my fucked up body, fuck school, fuck my fucking ass of a brother, FUCK EVERY...

 yesterday my doctor told me i have to stop modern, i shouldnt be dancing at all, im so sick of being told that she was the 4th Dr. to tell me that. and on top of that no winter show because the...

 ok, so ive started driving a lot more now because all the idiot tourists are outa here (praise the Lord) so im driving with my mom everywhere i go. i never thought i would ever be able to drive on...

 I Want You To Know by my best friend Jesse

 perfect song this has been my entire life    You feel like a candle in a hurricaneJust like a picture with a broken frameAlone and helplessLike you've lost your fightBut you'll be alright,...

yesterday i had 2 anxiety attacks. the first one was the worst but thankfully i didnt do anthing to myself. the second one though was in the middle of the night and i ended up scratching my...

today i went to the library because i want to do a research paper on lyme disease because thats what im dealing with. i also have Bartonella and i found out from one of the books i have had it for 4...

everything hurts lately, even my ankle. really starting to frustrate me because I have no idea what to do or who to go to about this anymore. my memory has also gotten really bad. my short term...

so tonight as I was looking something up I stumbled upon something that I had discovered about my body 6 years ago. I remember the day I found it like it was yesterday. Wondering what was up with my...

been on it for about a month now. taking 3 capsules 2x a day which is def not something my body is use to. I'm feeling sick to my stomach all the time. last week at work during a double I got to the...

found out last week that my llmd doctor is no longer doing her clinic for her lyme patients. a few months after we started going to her she informed us that she was leaving to a place off Cape (I...

so stressed. Dad hasn't had any work come in, hes a self employed carpenter and no one has needed him so mom has been wicked stressed and telling me everything thats wrong so thats made me wicked...

ok, how do you know that you are done hurting yourself????? I mean come on I think about it but I don't... is that considered as progress or still just the same pathetic person I was 2 years ago?I...