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Status: I'm very sad!
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- Hi All, I'm writing this for a number of reasons one being lately I'm super sensitive and that's not allowing me to have an "Open Mind" which just adds to the many other "Issues" and this has become part of the "Vicious Cycle" I'm trying to get out...
- I made it Ma the Top of The World! That feeling of nothing can touch you, but you know it's going to blow up right in your face, and there isn't a damn thing you can do about it, except ride it out!!!!
- Today 33 years ago my Mother died at the age of 44 of a heart attack, I have very mixed feelings! Guilt Shame to name a few and I just feel so lost!
- I stood at the "River" today and wrestled with do I or don't I and it was very close and here I sit wondering if I made the right decision! Depression takes your life without you actually physically leaving, it is a constant battle one at times you...
- Tomorrow I'm meeting with a Trauma Specialist for Women and I'm having second thoughts! Years of dealing not dealing have caught up and Flashbacks coming to close! Anyhow just need to know someone will be there when I come back, and I'm hoping no...
- I have a appt. tomorrow with a trauma center, I'm beginning to have second thoughts! Traumas from childhood into teens! many years have passed but lately Flashbacks everyday! Just nervous I guess!Blessings to all!
- What do they all mean if "I" and I mean "I" can't get a handle on any of them because just when"I" think I'm getting somewhere another one pops up!I"m so confused, it's a really long story and now I'm having trouble focusing so I'll end now....
- I believe If we can't be "Sensitive", " Supportive" and "Non Judgemental" saying nothing works best! We come here for many different reasons and for some it's extremely difficult!Sometimes I feel we need a little reminder what we stand for here at...
- Has anyone tried to describe, verablize in "Detail" this Fucking Horrific Nightmare! I've tried but have not been able to.I'm in Therapy and really trying but the words just won't come!I've been not dealing for years and really need to because it's...
- When do they End? Do they ever end? For sometime now it's happening more and more and coming closer and closer! I need them to stop! I can't function like this!!!!
- Is this a possibility? The "Blackhole" is approaching I can feel it in the pit of my stomach! I feel when I do have the "Mania" it's shortlived ! I do try techniques I've learned over time but sometimes it feels "Hopeless"!also "Flashbacks" are...
- Is this a possibility? I already feel the "Blackhole" in the pit of my stomach! I so don't want to go there! It just seems the "Highs" last sometimes A day or two and sometimes it leaves so fast I say what the hell!I try so hard to not fall into...
- I am so going to try and act like a "Grownup" today although I'm not quite sure if in fact that is the "Issue" but I do know I'm having a really difficult time being what I consider "Stuck" in limbo! Want to be "Peter Pan" but don't like that either...
- Well who ever they are didn't know what the heck they were talking about!It' almost 9 yrs. yet it feels like yesterday most days! I'm in therapy, I'm a community activist as he was, I stepped into that role after he died more to keep his memory...
- It just hurts so bad I can't breathe... sometimes I amaze myself that I'm still here! No one said life was fair... but I didn't realize how cruel it was! Oh well that's all she wrote!