Hi insecure, I am so sorry that your going through these emotions. I am sure you deal with this every anniversary of her death. Kinda hits close to home because I am the same age as your mother. Hope you have a wonderful day.

Jen XXOO

I'm forever trying to deal with the fact that both of my parents died young and tragically. One in a car accident, and other of major complications to a very minor illness. I was a grown-up when they died, with kids of my own, but the pain, shock and disbelief is always with me -- especially in my dreams at night.

And yes, I understand the mixed feelings. I'm not sure exactly why you feel shame and guilt, but it makes sense. Those feelings constantly surround our relationships with our parents, and it is particularly difficult when you are trying to resolve them all on your own. There are so many questions I wished I'd asked them when they were alive.

In any case, I just want to say that I'm here if you need to talk, and am sending you lots of hugs.

Get through it as best you can. I know you will. You're amazing in my eyes!

I'm sorry I didn't see your post earlier. I wasn't there for you.
Anniversaries are very difficult. It is a day on the calender that brings much stress anxiety and reflection. Many "what ifs" run through our heads.
I hope that the day was managable for you and that today is better. I am very sorry for the loss of your mother, especially at such a young age.

A loss of a loved one...or actually any loss...only echo's the pain we either felt or repressed at our original states of trauma.

I am sorry to hear of this anniversy mate
hang in there
love and peace to you x