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  Dreams

  Posted by: Dixiejean7

  Last Reply: ladybugluvs 08/22/2019

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  I was in an abusive relationship for about 2 years off and on. It's been 8 years since I've gotten out. I struggled with him stalking me for a very long time. It would go in phases. I wouldn't hear from him for months and then he would come back full force. Showing up at my house. Sending me pictures of my vehicle parked outside of stores or restaurants. Calling/ texting non stop. It's been about 4 months since I've heard from him. His number has been blocked. I blocked him and his friends and...

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  Uneasy

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  Last Reply: EmmasNotAlone 12/10/2018

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  It's a strange feeling to wake up one morning and not recognize yourself anymore but that's what happens when an abuser is a part of your life. You don't even realize what's happening until its too late. My story is probably very similar to  most of yours, at least the beginning. They usually are...different names and different faces but the story doesnt change much. I got out though. I left and I thought that meant it was over. He didn't give up that easy though. The details don't really...

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  Dreams

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  Last Reply: special101 07/15/2018

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  I always thought it would he him, ya know? When I thought about my future, he was the one that was in it. He was the one waiting for me at the end of the aisle on our wedding day. He was the one that picked out a house with me. He was the one I was telling he gets to be a daddy. There was never any doubt that it would be him. But now I'm marrying another man in a few short months. I guess it's hard to let some dreams go. Especially when that dream has a way of sticking around. Don't get me...

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  Discussion Comment

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  Posted: 01/16/2018

  Dixiejean7 commented on the discussion Caught off guard.

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  Posted: 01/15/2018

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  Caught off guard

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  Last Reply: soulsearcher83 01/24/2018

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  It's funny how one text message can change everything. I was sitting at a party with my fiancee and our friends, planning our wedding. We were dreaming about our future and remodeling the house we just bought. We were talking about babies and life together. I was laughing and I was truly, genuinely happy. "I miss you, honestly." That is all it took for me to lose years of progress recovering from an abusive relationship. One text message from my ex and I feel myself slipping back into a...

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  Struggling lately

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  Last Reply: Kellum10 09/29/2017

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  I met my ex when I was in high school . Perfect relationship at first. We had a great couple of months. Things gradually got bad. Name calling. Comments putting me down or embarrassing me. Manipulating me. Playing mind games. Controlling. Then things got really bad. He was angry all the time and he was mean. Slap across the face. Kicking me. Pushing me. Pulling me away from something. Throwing me into walls. Raping me. We dated on and off for well over a year. I finally had enough and said I...

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  Struggling today

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  Last Reply: MyTrueColors 08/01/2017

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  It's been 2 months since I've gone no contact with my ex. It has been difficult and I couldn't even begin to tell you how many times I thought about calling him or had messages ready to text him. Things were not good when I was with him but at least I knew how to deal with it and I knew what to expect. Suddenly I was trying to figure out what I felt and was so frustrated with myself because of how everyone else thought I needed to feel and I just couldn't get there. I've spent the last 2...

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  trying to make it through another day.

  Posted by: Dixiejean7

  Last Reply: MyTrueColors 07/05/2017

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  Things have been going pretty okay lately up until a few days ago. I bought a house and got engaged. I went no contact with my ex a little over a month ago. Something I probably should have done a long time ago but as I'm sure most of you can understand, he's extremely manupulative and I hadn't ever been able to do it. He's been blocked on everything and a majority of his friends and most of his family members have been blocked as well. It took me 6 years and him almost killing me to finally...

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  Dear B,

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  Posted: 06/14/2017

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  I was never afraid or scared of you. I didn't have a reason to be. You always promised me it wouldn't happen again and you loved me so it was okay, right? You were sorry and I was just a teenage gril. You convinced me that I was making things worse than what they really were. You loved me so I had no reason to be afraid of you.I protected you, kept your secrets, answered every late night phone call, drove you home from bar after bar, and stay to take care of you at 2 AM instead being home...

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  Today

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  Posted: 06/09/2017

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  These past few months have been difficult to say the least. There were days when I wasn't sure I'd be able to make it through but I'm here. My abusive ex has been in and out of my life for the past 7 years. I've been having issues with him since July of 2016 but things really took a turn for the worse when his grandmother passed away. He had called me begging for me to come over so he could talk to someone. I did. I knew that he was taking her death very hard. I wanted to be there for him....

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  Staying strong is a challenge.

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  Last Reply: jdb22 06/06/2017

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  There are days when I feel undeserving. Even when I haven't spoken to him in months, I still hear his voice in the back of my head telling me how unsuccessful I will be, that I'm not good enough, that I'm not smart enough, that I won't ever make it without him. And most of the time I think that he's right. I have days when anger fills my whole body, a blinding rage seeing nothing but red. I hate him. I want nothing more than to get in his face and make him feel like shit for what he did to me....

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  Advice.

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  Last Reply: MyTrueColors 05/12/2017

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  I haven't been with my ex in 6 years. He was and still is an alcoholic. He's a narcissitic sociopath. He was verbally, emotionally, psyically, and sexually abusive. Very manipulative and controlling. I've recently started trying to cope with all of this and it's been a struggle. I've been angry with myself for letting him treat me so aweful. I've been worried that it took me so long to realize what had been happening. I've been confused because I haven't gotten to the point of being angry with...

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  Once the storm passes, you find the sun

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  Last Reply: briezy009 11/10/2016

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  He asked me to marry him just last week and the next day he told me that he needed to move on and he didn't want me anymore and two days after that he came back. I'm done. After 6 years, I finally blocked him on all social media. I blocked his phone number. I changed the locks. I thought that I would be devistated. But I have never been more relieved. That's the last time his words will ever hurt me. That's the last time he gets to leave. I finally had enough of the bullshit and I was able to...