It's funny how one text message can change everything. I was sitting at a party with my fiancee and our friends, planning our wedding. We were dreaming about our future and remodeling the house we just bought. We were talking about babies and life together. I was laughing and I was truly, genuinely happy.
"I miss you, honestly." That is all it took for me to lose years of progress recovering from an abusive relationship.
One text message from my ex and I feel myself slipping back into a person that I never wanted to be again. I find myself wanting to be with a man who has done nothing but destroy me every chance he has ever gotten. "I miss you" is all it took to make me doubt myself. Those words playing on repeat in my head. The anger and betrayal and the hurt has slipped away. The walls I've built have fallen. He is back and I don't know if I'm strong enough to not let him back in.
I know I am not alone.... I am trying to severe ties with my entire toxic family once and for all. I have been trying for more than 18 years, moved 4 states away, I blocked their phone numbers but the message is not getting through. Last week I filed harassment/threat reports with my law enforcement, but I can not wait for them to show up at my door again. Tired of being smothered. ...
Why am I so different from everyone else? Why are men never attracted to me and run if they sense I'm attracted to them?My first kiss was when I was 22. The guy told me he felt like he had to kiss me bc I wanted to kiss him. My first sexual partner refused to commit to me and left after 4 months to be with an ex. One guy told my best friend he wanted a relationship with her and told me he wasn't...