Hi. My name is Wendy.
I was physically, emotionally, mentally abused as a child - not certain about the sexual abuse, although I cannot rule it out - too many missing memories from childhood. Abused by peers throughout public school. One abusive relationship after another. Became the abuser, and Karpman drama triangle personified. Recovering addict. Two failed marriages. A son who does not talk to me. All by the age of 44. LOL

But now, I am finally wrestling my demons - and I will love my inner child back to health. My word to her.

I am grateful that this group exists.
Thank you.

Wendy

Hi everyone. I am new to this website. I have a lot in common with many of you. I am 24 and married (thankfully, to a wonderful man). I was sexually abused by my dad and grandpa throughout my whole childhood. I finally cut ties with my parents last summer... and my grandpa has since passed away. I remember so many details of what happened to me. For some reason, I still remember what clothes I was wearing each time it happened. I wasn't raped, but feel like what did happen deadened my soul. I have been going to counseling for several months, but I still can't cry when I talk about it... I actually have a difficult time talking about the details at all. I feel shame and humilation for what happened. I know it is not my fault, but it still feels shameful.

Good afternoon all,
I am new to this group. When I orginally logged into DS, it was gain more knowledge and understanding of my thoughts on my abuses. I found instead, I got scared and havent spent the time I needed to on healing.

Now is the time.... I need to be more open about me..... the child that was sexually, physically, and mentally abused from the age of 6 to 11. My abuser died in 1992....but the pain didnt die with him.

I am 35 years old.. mother of two. Married to a childhood friend.. after many years of self abusing relationships and marriages. My flashbacks are coming more often... and when they trigger, I find myself eating myself into the ground.

I am a survivor... I just want to start acting like it again!

Hi Im and a survivor you all can read my journal if youd like its all there. I need not look far to find my inner child I have DID with few littles. So they just come out and play.

Talk to you all later

hay im karen and im 10 im 1 of sarahs inerchild there is me bobby and jaja and there was one called angel but she has semed to dispared. sarah got raped alot and thats why we are here

My name is Ashley. I am 21 years old. I was sexually abused when I was 12 from June 2000-December 2000. I suffer from depression cause of the abuse i endured

Thankyou Dani,

Im Photo, im 36, i was raped by my brother and then sexually abused aged 8 onwards. I was also beaten on a daily basis by my Father. My mother told me it was all my fault.
Now i am a strong warrior woman working in the community, im in therapy and its really helping. Im making photography and loving this website.
I love cinema and art galleries. Love and light to you all.

Hi, I'm Debbie, age 51. I grew up in a very volatile family with much physical and verbal abuse, then like a dope married the exact same type of man for 18 years and was constantly physically, sexually, and verbally abused by him daily. I have 2 grown daughters, am now divorced, and have one beautiful grandson. I suffer from PTSD, night terrors, flashbacks, the whole works. I'm basically just looking for support and someone to share with.

Hello, my name is Wendy, I am 35yrs. old and a SAHM to a wonderful daughter who is 5yrs. old and we are expecting our 2nd baby in Jan. I am married to my best friend now for 6yrs. I am a childhood sexual abuse survivor. I love to scrapbook, make cards and cooking those are my favorites. I am trying to help my 6yr.old Wendy heal from what has happened to her but she is very angry. But we are getting here. I am a very outgoing person and love to make friends. I look forward to chatting with you all.

Welcome ladies!

Ashley, I'm so sorry you were abused, and dealing with depression as a result. Keep working on that healing process, though, and cultivate self-love... it may take years, but life gets better and easier and sunnier, and it is worth the struggle to get there (I promise)

Photo, I love the description you gave of yourself: "strong warrior woman". Go you! (that is what I want to be someday, too)

Debbie, I don't think anyone would call you a "dope" for marrying into the sort of abuse that you were accustommed to... it was all that you knew growing up and we do tend to stick to the familiar, even when it isn't pleasant. I'm sorry that you went through that, though, and hope that you find the support and healing that you deserve.

Wendy, congratulations on your pregnancy! And I can relate to feeling your inner child's anger. I used to go to extreme measures to silence the rageful or fearful screaming that I heard in my mind... screams that I would have done better to listen to at the time! But eventually I did listen and slowly "Little Dee" began to release some (though not all) of her anger. We are still working on letting go.

Hello,
I am a 36 yr old returning college student studying criminal justice and maybe later, law. I think I want to be an international lawyer or criminal investigator with focus on sex crimes and cyber crime. I am a survivor of physical, sexual, spiritual, and emotional abuse and emotional neglect. I worked, until last month when they "let me go", in a residential placement facility for court ordered or adjudicated boys as a youth counselor/manager/teachers aide/sub teacher ( wore many hats...lol).
I enjoy reading, watching TV, including Law and Order, listening to music, hiking, biking, writing, photography, and much more.

I'm a 60-year-old divorced man with two grown daughters whom I never see. I am a survivor of physical, mental, emotional, spiritual, and sexual abuse, as well as a survivor of ritualistic physical and sexual abuse. I am retired, on full disability, due to a nummber of medical problems, most of which are the direct result of all of my abuse. I've been in therapy continuously since I turned 18, but each time we resolve one issue, two more pop up to take its place. It's a never ending process. I love music, reading, nature, animals, and travel, and will be going to London this year for Christmas.

I am married, with one son. I am desperately afraid that my sadness and depression from the fact that early invalidation has caused me to be incapable of handling life situations well, will affect my son.

I am a 22 year old single mom of two soon to be three kids. Mia is the oldest at four and is in the stage where she thinks she is a fairy and if the food isnt green she wont eat it(at least I can work with that.lol).
Henry is two years old and loves little bear. He doesnt want to eat anything except mac-n-cheese.
I am expecting a little girl on December 15. I am so nervous cause I work two jobs, one as a waitress on the nightshift and one online.
I am a suvivor of incest, rape, physical, emotional, and sexual abuse.

I am married for the 3rd (and hopefully last time), 41 years old, have 2 beautiful children, 18 yr old daughter, 12 yr old son, and 2 wonderful stepchildren (18 yr old daughter and 15 yr old son). I am a special education facilitator and I have been teaching special education students for 11 years. I was sexually abused by my half brother from about 5 yrs old to 13 yrs old. I have had an eating disorder since my daughter was born, major trust issues with men, low self esteem, depression, in and out of bad marriages/relationships, and finally met my current husband who is the first person I have ever opened up to and supports me beyond anyhthing I could ever have imagined. I am in therapy and looking for a face to face support group. I really want to heal my inner child and it helps to read that other people are going through the exact same thing that I am. Thanks for reading.
Kim