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Frustrated I'm just getting worse:(

musicgirl1991
musicgirl1991

so today started off as a meh kind of day.i thought I was going to be able to make it through .


now it has gotten really bad . I cut my arm open and it was bleeding and my mom randomly asked to check my arm so she saw :( then she started screaming at me that I need residential treatment . I don't even know what that is :( 


she made me cover them all up with band aids but now all I want to do is wrip them all off and cut more on top of wanting to kill myself :( 


why wont this get better at all :( do I need to go for further treatment idk .i think I'm addicted to hurting myself 

Pignulotta
Pignulotta
Well, I hope it all works out for you. Cheer up hun, it's not so bad.
musicgirl1991
musicgirl1991
I'm trying .. my anxiety has just been really bad the past couple of days :(so it's hard to cheer up
Pignulotta
Pignulotta
I know. I do understand that - I get it, too. Yesterday and all last night I had seizures almost constantly - I had some today, too. But I try not to let it run my life. I have to smile in spite of the problems I have. (yes, I know, easier said than done) But try to look on the brighter side of things - I mean, you have come further than some people ever will - you overcame your epilepsy!!!!! That is something that is impossible for so many of us to ever even hope for! Epilepsy is a chronic condition, meaning it lasts a lifetime - but you overcame that! BRAVO!!!
BlackSheepFullbuster90
BlackSheepFullbuster90
Pignulotta is right. Your not alone in this. My parents freaked out when they say my arm... Treatment does help some but talking to people you trust helps even more.
musicgirl1991
musicgirl1991
I guess makes sense . As I like to say I guess .just keep swimming . Somthing might work eventually
Pignulotta
Pignulotta
That's right - I say that all the time! Just keep swimming, just keep swimming.... You gotta love Dorie! :)
catskyn
catskyn
Yes you need further treatment and if the counselors that you were seeing before are not working for you request new ones. You know as well as I do that you are hurting inside that is why you are "Cutting" . You feel so lost and the only time yo feel in control is when you are cutting yourself. Something is wrong . You need to get to the bottom of it. But don't end your life. Life is a beautiful journey and I know you don't see it that way at all right now I also know that when you seek help it can seem like a dead end situation. You can meet the wrong counceler for you , you have to wait a long time before you are seen. You probably feel like no one understands you and that feeling in itself can be can very lonely and scary. You've got to be STRONG in this world. I raised my daughters teaching them that. Sweetheart don't waste your time and energy trying to get others to understand you, its a dead end road. You need to learn to understand yourself. You do that by getting treatment and facing your demons and giants the things that are keeping you from moving forward.