I was told by my doctor that the rash is most likely to occur within the first 2 to 4 weeks. I did not get it, but that's what I ws told. If you are developing some sort of rash and your pdoc is not calling you back, then call your general M.D., but don't wait too long. You don't want to have serious side effects.

i can honestly understand what you mean by being all alone. ive been trated for bipolar 15 years now. i have no family. some people are lucky, they have good family and friends who understand and will stand by them in the uglist of times. ive never had that. 15 years of just surviving, nothing else. taking it day by day by day. as it stand now, all i have is a collect of days, nothing of substance. i lost my abillity to get my meds several months ago, and have since been desperately try to get someone to see me, but im not insured at the moment, im broke but still make too much money to get aid. the last three months have been a fight to just stay alive, and not hurt anyone else either. ever morning i wake up still alive and think its a miricle.

bipolar, for many of us, it a very lonely state of existance. i make friends easy when im up and feeling good, but when i get down, or hostile, all of those who say they can deal with it... run like hell. and really, i cant blame them. thats just been my luck.

but i still have hope, i dont know why, or maybe im just too chicken shit to do myself in. i dont know. im still here, a glutton for punishment i guess.

hope is the wind that i keep on the end of a kite string.

hang in there, easier said than done i guess, but please hand in there, i need to know there is still hope.

zig

if you have an unexplained rash stop taking the meds until you see a doctor. if you have a consistent fever, headache, or nausea. go to the er

foreal~That's what I was told too but I have been on the meds for months now, why not show up earlier?

ziggy~That's what I'm doing one day at a time it's hard but somehow I manage. I use this website a lot for the support though.

fineline~Nope don't have the consistent fever, headache, or nausea. I don't know that I should go off meds cuz what if I go manic or super depressed and lose control?

oh god Oleander do no give up. How Many times I have tried or felt like just checking out, Its been decades and I am still here. At my lowest point, a miracle happened and my life took a complete turn around. I still have my illness but i am able to enjoy life inspite of it. Don"t give up. Every person reacts a little bit differently to various drugs. For some it takes a longer time for them to kick in. As for your rash speak to you Internist or Family Doctor about it as well as your psychiatrist.

You can develop a sensitivity to a drug you are already taking - my drug book says to notify your prescriber if a rash occurs.

My shrink called back and said she would look at it at the next apt which isn't til Monday afternoon. So hopefully it's nothing too bad.

You all have been very helpful keeping me alive and thinking I could do this but I can't. Despite what most people think I'm not as strong as I let on, inside I'm dead and crushed from a life of hell so why not make my outside match my insides? I pondered this thought all night since I couldn't sleep so I am going to continue writing my letters and packing my stuff, maybe it's my time and this is how it's supposed to be.

You remind me so much of myself. I'm now 43 and still alive! I've had to change many meds until I found the ones that are better. I'm still not well,but I don't feel suicidal that often and when I do, it doesn't last.
Get a second opinion from another psych about your meds
And go to a good therapist. If you've had a lot of trauma I suggest a therapist who does EMDR.
Hang in there...and trust all of us here who have made it this far...

Maybe, but maybe not, and to find out you have to hang around a while longer. I still think you need different meds. When you're done packing, or better yet, right now, please drive to a bigger hospital and check in for however long it takes. Steal money for gas if you have to. Or get on a bus. Do what it takes. They will fix you. You just need docs who know what they're doing. Why would you kill yourself because some jerks with MDs are slackers and won't do their jobs properly? At the very least, don't make any decisions until they've fixed you enough to get a few nights' sleep. Sleep deprivation in itself can make you suicidal. You can always do it later. Suicide is always there for you, but you first have to do these other things.

And of course, call your p-doc if you're that suicidal. Sound like she upped your meds, and that made it worse. She needs to know that, and ASK for something else. Then go to the ER to get something else. No talking. You need other drugs. Call her at 2am (if you have her pager number), to let her know what's happening. Why should she sleep soundly while you're busy arranging your stuff? Makes me angry.

Just a thought: when at the ER, try making a scene, so that they have to keep you. My friend's father had to make a big scene at the hospital to get himself committed. At the time, he was about to travel to Iraq to talk to Saddam and try to avoid the war. He knew he wasn't well, but the people there figured it wasn't that bad. Ha-ha... So he made a big angry scene at the admissions desk, and they kept him. He's fine now.

IT IS NOT YOUR TIME! If you are not getting anti-depressants from your doc,
and even if u r, but still feeling suicidal, go to an Emergency Room, or
call 911! This is serious, don't play
with this.