Cristiangel
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- I cannot stop playing even when I win thousands of dollars. I have been thinking about it and realize how slot machines do no more but manipulate my brain. When I play slots, especially when I win, I cannot think of doing anything else except...
- My social anxiety has crippled me all my life. It started with those awful teachers who I hate who had nothing better to say to me other than "she is so shy and quiet." My whole identity throughout school was built on this label. Year after year,...
- I have given up! I don't believe in relationships. It has been failure after failure and I just don't care anymore. I have been the best wife a husband could ask for. I have taken so much and received so little. I have been taken for granted and so...
- im doing great today! over 2 years NG! Hurray for me!!!!
- I made a decision on January 1, 2019 not to gamble anymore after 6 awful, regretful, miserable years! At the time, I thought I was having such a wonderful time in my life. I couldn't imagine a life without gambling! I even have elderly parents who...
- Hi! It's been 1 year and 4 months since my last bet!
- I have not gambled for 47 days! It feels more like 6 months since I have been gambling almost every day for years. Life is very different. I made a choice on January 1, 2019 to live a life with no gambling and I am proud of myself for sticking to my...
- I have been on and off on this site. I have been a compulsive gambler for the last 6 years or so. I started going to a casino that is about 100 miles from my home. I lost a lot of money over those last 4-5 years. In more recent years, I have been...
- I have posted on this site before about 6 months ago. I stopped because I started gambling again. I have stopped driving to casinos because it is way too far from where I live. But now, my new and almost worst addiction is online slot machines. It...
- I can't count how many times I keep going through the vicious cycle. There was literally no money left in my husband's bank account because I spent the majority of his paycheck on gambling. I have given myself all the reasons why I should gamble...
- Day one again. When will this cycle end... hopefully today. My problem is that I cannot win. I can only lose since I put all of my winnings and more back into the slot machines. When I win, I can't even hold onto my winnings for more than a week. It...
- I am hoping that this will be my last "fourth" day. As a recovering pathological gambler, that is all that I expect from myself - recovery one day at a time. I am proud of myself for that. What has helped me get through the last few days is watching...
- I blew it on what could have been day 23. I am convinced now that there is no hope. I hope, no support, I give up
- It has been 20 days! I am looking into attending a gamblers anonymous meeting in my area. I am also going to start attending CODA meetings (co-dependents anonymous). I am going through a difficult period right now (due to other personal problems)...
- It is getting easier. Today is my second day home alone in my big house without the kids. Often I get bored and turn to gambling, but today I stayed on my comfortable massage chair, watched youtube videos and relaxed with no gambling! Yea for me!!!