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well it's been quite a weekend... some good and some not so good... I'm a little frustrated... here we are the 29th of December... Just about ready to start a new year... and here I am... starting it...

Well I finally got to the cemetary yesterday christmas day and brought Paul and Tracy their Candycanes... How I wish that they were still with me.  The sadness is unbearable at times and I keep...

We've got a storm brewing with plenty of snow on the blow...I am stopping by the cemetary to put up my son's and daughter's xmas tree.. with the 2 candy canes that I leave for them.... and then I'll...

Well... Here I go again... Just recently ... actually yesterday it was confirmed I have cancer of the breast and I guess there's not too much to say about it. Yes, I'm worried... of course I am... I...

This has been quite the time for me.... I'm tired...fed up and not surehow to shake this depression.... This is not good... I'm usually quite upbeat and have a good sense of humor... but my humor is...

well i'm back again... and here i thought i was just being b*****y... hell... I now know it's a despression and not the other..   Dang it... wish I could shake it... can't.... supposed to be doing...

you know it's strange... well maybe not so strange that here I am again.... Funeral this afternoon for a dear woman that passed away much to early after many trials and tribulations and she's gone......

not exactly an update.... but maybe it is... just curious... has anybody found major changes with their significant other with regards to their personal relationship with their significant other...

Well, we're now in January... and the year... 2010... Wow.... It blows me away and makes me think where has all the time gone.... I'm doing well.... at least I think so.... Think I might see my way...

Well it turns out that next weekend... my youngest daughter is hosting a party for the friends and family of her brother and sister who have passed on.... It's been 20 years for my daughter tracy......

Well sitting here thinking the day went well.. except for a few tears in the morning of course... It's been 20 years... since my girl died.... and I find it hard still to believe that all this time...

you know i've been thinking.. thinking about all the time and energy that I spent being angry.... angry at everybody and everything... actually more specifically angry at the young man that was...

Well... This is a great group of people here... and they help they really do... Just wish that I had never had a reason to be here... but seeing I do... I'm glad that I've found DS... Yesterday was...

You know it's been awhile since i've been on here... I'm back at work..  been busy as all get out and have been at times reading some of the posts..and doing some thinking... thinking about what a...

well to say the least.. it's been an interesting weekend for sure.... I had to go to Birth Mother's home ... she passed away on the 1st of January and I and my siblings had to sort through her...