dinorachel
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- Lately, I just feel very unwelcome everywhere. My father is angry at me for some unknown reason and can't stand to be around me. I started getting close to some new people last week and now they don't bother to talk to me. Of course, I do believe...
- So, a few months ago my parents found out about my cutting again. They forced me into therapy that I managed to get out of and everyone seems to be happy enough. But I know my mother at least is keeping an eye on me to make sure I'm not hurting...
- So, my parents found out about my hurting myself (again). I became careless and let my arms show (again). They made me see a therapist (again).I'm so frustrated. I wouldn't talk to the therapist because a) I'm still mad at her from the last time I...
- Right now, I think I could be ready to at least try to give up cutting. I think I've come to a point where I can admit I'm doing no good to anyone. I think I've come to a point where I don't need it so much anymore. I think that maybe today's the...
- Often, I find myself listing every single thing I hate about myself. I think I do it because once I was told to list everything I loved about myself to get my self-esteem up. Haha, it backfired.I always find something to frown upon about myself. My...
- The whole holiday has sucked. (Oh my, I sound so whiny. I apologize.) My dad decided it would be a good idea to take me to see his parents on Christmas Day. I don't know about you, but I'm a big fan of sitting around in my pajamas doing nothing on...
- I lost it a couple days ago (it was in a pocket, and I guess it fell out when I took off my pants) and I figured it was in my room somewhere. I hunted for it but to no avail, but figured it was still probably somewhere in my room. So I gave up the...
- A girl I know recently tried to off herself (I'm sorry; that sounds like a harsh way to put it, I know. I can't bring myself to say it any other way, though). I feel so, so guilty. Every day I'd see her, and every day I'd think, "I really like her...
- So, the past three days have kind of sucked. I've realized that I've become only a friend of convenience, or rather security, to a friend of mine that I really loved. I mean, I know people grow apart and I'd be okay with it if it were possible to...
- I feel all panicky and restless. I hate this. I have to do three assignments in eight days and I don't know if I'll get it done. I know that's the cause of my panic, but I also know that I won't be able to focus until the panic is gone. And I know...
- It might be really childish, but I've started to really love buying big ol' coloring books and coloring in them whenever I feel down. It really helps me out. It's just really soothing to concentrate completely on coloring. I don't know where I'm...
- I feel so, so awful today. I don't know why. I can't function at all. I stayed in bed most of the day and when I finally got up, I didn't bother to change out of my pajamas. It's pathetic. It wasn't so bad earlier, there was just an overwhelming...
- Any of you guys ever watch "The Joy of Painting" on your PBS stations? Bob Ross is so sincere, and he makes me feel really good. I love watching him paint almighty mountains and happy trees ("Even trees need friends," he tells me). Recently I've...
- I feel so, so awful. I just want to hurt myself so much. I want to cut and cut and cut, until my whole body is covered. I don't want to feel like this. I have no reason to feel like this. I want help. Hell, I'm numbing my arm right now so when I...
- I just told my boyfriend I SI. It's so nerve-wracking. He asked why. I found it hard to say. Self-esteem issues? Family issues? Habit? Now he's comforting me, telling me I'm great. and I'm crying. Because I know I'm really not. I'm really nervous....