dinorachel

I really like going to those stupid calorie counting websites and putting in what little I eat and reading that I'm "Too Low" in almost every nutrient I need. And I know that I'm probably going to...

I went to counseling, of my own accord, for the first time yesterday. And it wasn't bad. My counselor didn't make me cry or scare me, and that's a big step. He even suggested that if I come back we...

I hurt. All of me hurts and I feel like I'm wasting my college experience. And the fog is so thick inside my brain that if I were a less sane person I would be trying to drill holes into my head to...

Well, after thirteen years of seeing the same 303 faces each and every day minus the weekends and summer, it's all over.  We cried when we started school the August of 1998, we cried when we...

Okay, so, my not-boyfriend (I won't date him, because at the beginning of our relationship, I wasn't going to get too involved; I didn't want to leave him when I left for college -- didn't work out...

I've stopped not eating. Just gave it up, like that. I'm eating healthy, and exercising, and I feel so damn good. My acne's clearing up, and life is good. I like this. I feel really happy.

My parents have always made me feel like the fuck-up.  Next to my perfect sister, whom they dote on, I'm just average.  I'm not smart enough, not polite enough, not caring enough -- simply not...

I get it. I'm not smart enough, well-rounded enough, good enough to get more money.  Don't sugercoat it.  A simple letter saying, "Hey. Everyone else in Kentucky is smarter than you, so we're not...

Motherfucker, motherfucker, motherfucker. Motherfucker.Okay, so, this guy that's flirted with me since I was about fifteen (three years, btw) came over last week, we flirted, and it ended in drunken...

I wanna go to Iowa for school. I've dreamed of going; I want to go. I've given up hope on going, of course, because I'm an out-of-state student and it will cost me a fortune that I don't have and...

Stole a pack of X-Acto blades from my local craft store today. I just opened them, went through a meticulous cleaning process, and I feel so calm. So much calmer than I was, at any rate. I broke down...

They're finally done! :D  I'm pleased.I decided to dread my hair not because I like dreads (though I do love them) but because hippies have dreads, and hippies are calm, peaceful, happy people....

I'm so so so so stressed.  I feel like I need to cry, but every time I get close I have to stop because I'm around people.  I don't have any reason to be so goddamn upset.  It's my senior year of...

I fell today, with my camera.  That camera is my life.  I need it.  The lens is fucked now.  It won't focus quite right and it won't focus completely.  I need it to work! Of course I have no one...

I wrote a travel essay for a scholarship contest, and it's a fuckin' semi-finalist piece! :D I feel so so so so good right now. I can write. I haven't lost my touch. I can write. I had to chop that...