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• Family Issues
  

  Family has become toxic to me

  Posted by: aesthetictotem

  Last Reply: SunCloudJD 01/15/2017

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  I have never really had a good experience with family, the word 'family' alone being toxic to me. The entire concept of family has me gagging and groaning in annoyance and anger, and I know it's wrong because family can be a really nice thing to have. I just never experienced it as a nice thing.I was born as a result from a teenager who didn't know how a condom works, and was basically immediately adopted by a couple from the Netherlands. That couple has to be the WORST humanity has to offer:...

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  Joined New Group

  Posted by: aesthetictotem

  Posted: 01/14/2017

  aesthetictotem joined the group Family Issues.

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  obsession with scars

  Posted by: aesthetictotem

  Posted: 12/07/2016

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  Okay, this is going to sound weird, but I'm OBSESSED with scars, and not in the usual way.I used to self-harm by cutting, but recently I've switched to burning myself. While cutting did give me a satisfied feeling watching the blood flow, burning my arm by holding a lit match close to it hurts (in my opinion) more and leaves a much more 'satisfying' result: a permanent scar. I don't know why, but I basically thrive off of pain, either my own of pain I've caused others. There are some people I...

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  New Friend

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  Posted: 07/12/2016

  aesthetictotem became friends with hamza.

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  New Friend

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  Posted: 07/12/2016

  aesthetictotem became friends with rosykitten.

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  New Friend

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  Posted: 07/12/2016

  aesthetictotem became friends with lostsoul72.

• Depression
  

  Hi

  Posted by: aesthetictotem

  Last Reply: pgreen 07/12/2016

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  Hi there. I signed up a while ago on this website, but always kept to myself. I decided to change that because.... well... I don't know. I'm probably hoping that someone will talk to me, but I don't mind if you chose not to. I don't even know how this works, this is the first time I'm doing something like this... 

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  ranting again...

  Posted by: aesthetictotem

  Posted: 07/11/2016

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  I have always loved the lolita style, but obviously because I'm a fatass I will never be able to wear a dress. The plus size lolita dresses are extremely dificult to find, and when I do find one it's either sold out or still too small. I wish I could wear what I wanted as a fat person. I wish I didn't have PCOS, then I'd be able to wear whatever I want and look good. But no, I just HAD to get this fucking sickness. But not being able to wear what I want is just the tip of the iceberg: I am...