cynicalcat
Status: what kind of person can't make it work w/ a tiny 18 lb dog
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Haven't had a drink since the accident. That doesn't mean I haven't wanted one ... ok, well more than one. But I'm finding I'm MUCH stronger than I'd thought. That alone is inspiration to keep...
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Wow, been a long time since my last entry. Here's how things are:Tigger was euthanized. I still miss both her & Spike terribly, some days more than others.The clock began on our divorce May 27th....
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i've finally come to terms w/ my feelings in my marriage. couple weeks ago i asked tony for a divorce. right now things are progressing on a day by day basis. i have not been in love w/ him for...
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I didn't cut today. I made it thru. Don't know how I felt so great in the AM, but it faded by midday. Why? What did I do? Why does this keep happening? What is wrong w/ me? Everything I...
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do not read if you're SI it's bittersweet: born of torment, of self-loathing, of pain, of my own hatred for myself & for anyone who dares to care for someone as hopeless as i am. and yeah, i'm...
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stupid piece of shit worth nothing
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2/4 will be 2 months since Spike's passing. It still tears at me. It makes me want to cut so goddamn fucking bad. I feel as if my heart has this scar (like the one on my upper left bicep) ......
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It's been rough, this month.This is my 1st holiday season w/o Spike. I miss him awfully. The pain & sadness hasn't so much gone away as been buried.I still have nightmares almost nightly.I'm...
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It's been 4 days since Spike went to the Grey Havens, as Tony & I put it. And while I still miss him like I'd miss a limb, I'm starting to feel the pain subside. While that's somewhat of a...
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I lost Spike Friday. I won't recap it here. I've already done that in the Pet Bereavement forum, on myspace, on facebook, orally, & on gothauctions.com. I can't go thru it again. I've been...
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Dealing w/ a lot of weight concerns lately. Luckily, I have not cut lately nor had a smoke. *sigh* It's not easy. I'm still looking forward to vacationing in Cali next week!!! :) I'll miss my...
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Well, times are good. Times are bad. *sigh* Such is life, eh? I cut last week. 1st time in over 200 days. I'm not going to get too angry over it though. I was just so upset that day. ...
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I often feel like I try so hard to keep it together only to notice that the more I need to contain something, the more it seeps through in unexpected areas: I can't stay completely smoke-free. ...
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